i love u, nyp4.

they simply rock. haha creative, wacky, energetic bunch of people! ace and abi too!

a great surprise and wonderful time spent with all of u.

and that's besides the broom, and yeah, yuhan's bolster. ;)

and really appreciate all who sent their birthday wishes! and even derek who emailed me his greetings fr california! touched!

to all who called too, i m blessed by the calls. :)

and to you who did not call, finally, i think it really marks some closure. :) and amazingly, i m glad.

i am blessed. more than anything that i can ask for, from this church family of love.

meetup with shareen was simply wonderful. it totally added strength to me. He who refreshes others will himself be refreshed! shared with each other about 'FAITH factor'.

we don't just need God. we want God! :)

picture Jesus as your friend.

You don't only need a friend in bad times, isn't it? would'nt you love to share your best times with your friend as well? in fact, its the time spend during the good days that lays the foundation of bad times.

So give your best to Jesus; best time, best finance, best attitude, and more.

we all need somebody, to lean on. :) let the somebody be J.e.s.u.s.

thanks utan, carrie, jason, bo, enghow, xuan, hongyao, joseph for the surprise today! touches my heart deeply.

and jieyun, junting and sharon who sent their apologies for not able to be there.

though simple, but simply overwhelmed by how much u guys embrace me and showered me with prayers.

love u all. :)

had a lovely night today! though the day started off really bad, but it was a refreshing time of talking to people one by one!

and seriously, learnt about getting up when i thought i am feeling down.

many things hit some of the girls in my grp. hannah's dad, cady's grand-dad, shareen's bro. uphold them in prayers.

i m really proud of these girls. with Christ in the vessel, they really smiled at the storm.

and i absolutely love the times spent with many people! had a great time spending time with ace at macs(AGAIN) and once again, my spirit is always so uplifted by her outstanding spirit!

thanks for blessing me with the notes, and the apple strudz, and the book, and the joyful spirit! the extra mile reflects Christ's love!

the people i love, and whom i appreciate very very much:
dmm~
















and my dearies at soo kaili's birthday celebration!















And IVAN RECEIVED HIM INTO HIS LIFE! praise God! so blessed by his sharing!

received an email fr shaun. the girl's:



















and the guys team.



















saw shaun online last week. and he shared that comps were around the corner.

and i went, hmm yeah. i recalled. yeah, january. yeah. that's fast. and that reminded me like that's almost 9 months i last attended training proper.

not as if the last time round of comps i went for intense training, but i did recall at least getting the 'feel' back 2 wks prior comps.

and to my horror of horrors, shaun responded to my when's comp with....

"Oh! end of this month and beginning of nov."

wow. what kind news.

and i was oh-so-tempted to request to drop out of the team.

but as i wait for a second, i kind of made sense of the situation. :) God you are indeed faithful! You never fail to answer prayers!

4 new year ones on board the team this yr! :)

i ll give my best to this comps. with a different spirit and perspective.

not winning medals. but winning souls. yes and amen!

just hung up the phone with shareen. so blessed, i can't contain it. I ve learnt something after the past few weeks till today: Let Go, and Let God.

the tighter i hold my fist, the harder to allow God to open my hand and hold it.

know something, its been ages since i ve had such revival within me. and i am claiming His promises one by one.

I put down by faith on my leadership goals a name, who is a non-believer. kai sze. :)

and amen, she responded to join us for service this wk! and hazel initiated to meet shar this fri!

something i learnt: intercede. stand in the gap. pray faithfully.

oh my gosh. really, so excited!

and sebas too. after meeting up shaun and shar, had a long long chat with him on the train whilst i was going to cady's hse for miaozhi's birthday celebration on sunday night.

exercising our spiritual muscles. yes! sebas, believe that heart knowledge and hard knowledge can come hand in hand! :)

and was really blessed by ace and abi's presence in our cg today! added strength and learnt loads from them! hahhas. and a great time of dinner with deb and ace. got to know ace deeper.

i see something in her. and that, i want to learn from her. ace is someone who is very consistent. and someone who gives her maximum energy in every task, not an ounce lesser for any.

and when i asked her and told her so, she responded that its cos she is doing something that she enjoys. :)

and yes, i can see it through her life. hope u ve had a good time, ace. :) cos i did.

caregroup was abt Growth. Ps Jeff shared, to grow, we must make intentional efforts. yes, i believe and m convicted of so.

saw yy online! she's in curtin now taking occ therapy! omg! n she suggested getting a hse with her friend too if i m really gg over! someone that i can depend on to share with me the culture of school and modules. great! :)

and something funny happened today. he called me and asked if i was in ntu, cos he thought he saw someone that resemble me in ntu.

hahas. o wells. imagine, its almost 5years, and honestly, he calls only once per year (on my birthday to wish me). so seeing his number today really caught me by surprise.

i wouldnt deny that upon putting down the phone, i wondered how is he getting along and stuff, but once again, briefly. i have moved on. :)

i was reminded of how he persistently shared Christ and never failed to pray for me everyday. and i was indifferent then.

how badly he wanted me to go with him into a missionary jc to experience the unity and community of Christians, but i chose a jc nearer my place instead.

how we used human logical understanding to think that being in a christian environment raise opportunities of knowing God, but God proved that He is everywhere and anywhere. :)

I knew Him, right smack in jc. not the missionary jc. but a place where i thought the opportunities of hearing about God was zilch. :)

and m glad we both moved on. still friends, but prolly a call-once-a-year friend. heard he is doing well and in SCA's ntu crick team with all his sec sch buds.

thank you, for sharing about Him to me. and how HE proved that everything is best in His time. :)

wishing and praying that you are well. take care friend.

God Is Everywhere
When you search for God today
He can be found in a brief while
You will find Him in a child
He is with you in every trial.

You will see our God everywhere
He is in teens and aged ones too
He is in a quiet mirrored stream
There in a sunrise with day so new.

God is there in the evening sunset
There in a gentle breeze that blows
He is in every beautiful rainbow
There when every blessing overflows.

God is there in every fierce storm
He is there in a precious smile
He is there in every bird and flower
With you in every treacherous mile.

God is there to hear every prayer
He is with you in every weary sigh
Always with you in times of sorrow
He's there when you question "why."

God is in every kindness that's given
There as families and friends share
He is there in a soft, gentle snowflake
God is with you and He is with me...
God is Everywhere!

-Leona I. Miller

its You i live for, everyday. :)

thanksgiving.

first to you Daddy in Heaven. thanks for holding me in Your hands for the past weeks, and the weeks to come.

next, my Daddy on earth. You are the greatest dad that i can ever ask for. I am truly touched by the gesture of his unconditional love. who always want the best for his children and never himself. thanks for blessing me, sis and ma so much.

to the buds and friends who have encouraged me along the way. wheeeee. i really love all of u guys. deep down in my heart. and thanks JK and elain for your messages to ask me hows my first day in clinicals! fyp made much more bearable and motivating during clinicals!

and happy birthday miaozhi! a fantastic gathering with the team yesterday! steamboat with great food and great fellowship!

had a great time with yuhan just now!

a commitment, a covenant. We can do it girl! ;)

GROWTH.

had an uber long long day ytd.

until i tot i was going to raise white flag to fatigue.

but was truly refreshed by people and happenings.

and i learnt that u dont need a positive thing to make u grow and give thanks.

the true essence is always to give thanks in the toughest and lowest times.

will u still give thanks?

i hope i will, and i want to create within me such a heart that ll be forever grateful.

watched "remember the titans". it was awesome. awesome awesome.

beautiful game of amer football.

the coming week is literally going to be a battlefield for me.

exams every single day, full-fletched papers.

Lord, i desire to thrive, not survive.

thank you for sustaining and strengthening me each day.

off for dmm. ciaos. (:

just put down the phone. had a shower.

sometimes, you know things are not mere coincidences. God uses you in His most unique manner, the way He knows best. Beyond what we can conceive and fathom.

I know, they are safe in His hands. I shall just do my humanly possible; and let God do the humanly impossible.

Pouring your life to nourish others in Christ, every moment. On board? (:

I know, God will make a way in all situations and circumstances. Thou its hard to see the end of the tunnel sometimes, but He just need us to trust Him and travel with Him through the tunnel, cos ultimately, we already know that there will be light at the end, eventually.

Faith to move on despite the overwhelming unknown.

"God will make a way,
when there seems to be no way,
He works in ways
We cannot see
He will make a way for me...

He will be my guide
Draw me closely to His side
With Love and Strength
For each new day
He will make a way...
He will make a way..."

essentially went for half a day of 3D2N leadership camp. hahas. so that's one meal of dinner, and one finale game.

and honestly, i thought that's what i am going to be having only! as i had missed out a whole load of powerful teachings, response and worship!

but man, was i so wrong. (:

the night that followed and the next day of clearing up was a reflection and learning experience of what leadership means to me.

i recall feeling a little lost after the games, cos that marked the end of the leadership camp technically speaking, and hey, i barely warmed my feet there for like 3 hours. hahas.

nevertheless, it made me learn that it's all about how you create learning experiences out of the seemingly nothing.

thank God for weihong 'forgetting' to retrieve his so-called-rubbish mark and spencer's plastic bag filled with his valuables. hahas. and i went sticking my head out of chalet looking for him to return them. and glad this sparked off a time where we just stood outside together with evan for a long time talking about sowing; the suitable atmosphere to create, the questions that a seeker may ask et cetera et cetera. great time of learning just simply by standing at the steps of fairy point 4. hahas

o wells. and we decided to take a seat. liyan soon joined us. windez and andrew too. and the things that we talked about soon translated to vision, bringing family to know Christ and much more. was a time of learning and sharing.

spent good time with shareen as well. looked for her at her room and man, she was bathing at 4+ am. hahas. i can see her heartbeat and her conviction about certain issues. and we have concluded tog, that this brought about a deep meaning of 'leadership' to her. i pray that with these learnings, it will translate to her being a powerful leader for Christ. she can and she will.

the next day of clearing up led me to witness the good-spiritedness of people! i was exceptionally amazed by windez and shareen, at how they handled the whole check out 'saga' per se. hahas. faithfully and without complaints, they went down the hill and up the hill and down the hill to the office again, to put the admin issues in place, to bring home lots of lost and found, to ensure the place is spick and span to reduce the burden of the cleaning workers. and i m so thankful for people like them who willingly took on these roles and responsibility to ensure things are in place.

and that's what i truly deem as servant-leadership. to lead through service of people.

i am thankful for alvin as well, who faithfully drove everyone of us thru, helping thru the checkout process, carrying the items, sending them to respective places et cetera. i can't imagine the day without him! a task that can easily be taken for granted, but he portrayed willingness to help admist tiredness. thank God for u bro.

and shar was so cute, she actually went out to find a cleaning auntie and her son and had them come to the chalet after clearing up. and i was thinking why.

only to realise that she had packed the unfinished and unused items nicely- syrup, fruits, eggs, milk (and more which i can't remember) for the lady to collect, with the help of her son. and as i was making milo in the kitchen, all i could hear was the profuse thank-yous and gratefulness that the lady kept offering. and the son too. from a distance, i saw the sparkle of joy in their eyes. not exaggerating, but yes, thats how much they were deeply appreciative of the blessings.

and this malay lady actually asked where was shar from. shar chirpyly replied that we had just ended a church leadership camp that lasted for the past 2 days. and the malay lady thanked her profusely again before ending with a "you all are very nice people."

and once again, its a reflection of how blessed it is to give than receive, and especially to people beyond the church.

after all the procedures, had a hearty lunch with shar, alvin and windez at pasir ris mac before we started the journey to shar's hse and her sch to unload all the equipment.

though physically tired at the end of the day, the spirit of the people refreshed me. and i am very blessed by the joy in service by people and the fellowship. great time, great people of God, who led thru example.

this is one unique and unforgettable leadership camp that i have experienced. (:

mind in a whirlpool.

i know that there will always be sunshine after the rain.

yes, a rainbow that is.

His Promises never fails.

and i want to hold on to 'em.

His strength and grace shall abound. everyday and forever more.

thanks shuyi, jitsy and sihui for the really sweet tot of fizzy fish and animal biscuits to perk me up for revision! really v blessed by this act of love despite just knowing i hav exams like a while ago. wow.

and also shareen. thanks for ur prayers. it indeed work wonders in the o-so-stressed-up me.

looking forward to join em all at leadership training camp. (:

back to revision. (:

History Maker was..awesome. (:

more about that later. when pics are up. (: meanwhile, chanced upon this pic. (:

20 amino acid structures?!!? says:
her ministry and studies will glorify ur name.. I also pray for strength from U to fill her every new day as she wakes up from her bed.. i pray that she'll not rely on her own strength to do all these cos we are just so limited as humans, but as Ur children seek U and draw strength from You.. and in all these know that our work in the Lord will not be in vain and its the most worthy investment to make..

20 amino acid structures?!!? says:
Lord, i also want to pray for Joy in her life as she does her ministry, school work and anything that she sets her heart to do.. i pray for joy to be so abounding in her heart that it overflows to her ppl around her that indeed when ppl see, they will sing with us 'How Great is our God'..

20 amino acid structures?!!? says:
really wanna commit this sister into Ur hands, may You protect her and keep her under ur Wings daily, hourly, every minute and every second.. thank U, God for this sister's heart to serve and be excellent in ur name! Give U thanks in advance, Father.. In Jesus Name, Amen!!!

a prayer from a friend over msn.

the best gift you can give anyone, is a prayer.

thanks my friend.

When The Winds Are Strong

If your life is windy these days-
winds of change, winds of adversity,
or may the constant winds of demands and expectations
that leave you feeling, well...
windblown-take heart.
As my mother used to say,
"The roots grow deep when the winds are strong."

- Charles R. Swindoll

sil's party on sat! theme: Send in the cows! (:
pretty cows drawn!




















the birthday girl. (: 21st!!















sil with the ponkard fam. hahas. with the penguin dispenser, cow box, cow bookmark and the cow soft toys.














had a gd time. (:

trying to keep the post short. cos brain's beckoning me to rest.

choir tmr! excited. (: i always look forward to the pracs. v refreshing and strengthening time of praise and worship for all of us after a long day. ironic? yeah. the power of singing unto Him. (:

lots happened last week. helping out at zoo hunt was a terrific time with the kids!

and an amazing discovery found.

andrew is actually from church! he is in the kids ministry! yes! teacher andrew! the ot sup. i cant believe it, until i saw him on stage with my very own eyes!

was very heartened. (: bet he was shocked to see me as well.

and on fri, had a gd dinner w deb and we were blessed with some free gelato of this new opening of a gelato shop- Haato at serang gardens! wheeee!

and had a gd chat with a pri sch friend online whom i ve nv kept in contact for the past decade or so. hahas. recollections of pri sch times. (:

and i nv knew i had a weird habit of rolling my eyes whenever i am thinking when i was in pri school. i bet i didnt know. hahas.

i know its going to be a wonderful week ahead. 6 days countdown to church anniversary. amazing.

thanks for holding my world all this while, Jesus. thanks.

For Play and School module. on 22 Aug at a childcare centre with the Nursery 2 children! (:

circle time! the sing-a-long! Hello song!















elisa and clare teaching the kids the steps to making a great cookie!














eh...........hahahas. holding 2 M & Ms. hurhur














the chocos and rainbow rice! for the kids to deco their cookies!




















classic pic of elisa and the adorable!














the cute animals! for making the party hat. (:














making the hat with the kids! and me and ryan finished ours first, with pleased looks on our faces! a wonderful time with the young ones. (:

...sometimes, i think i need to do something non-cerebral.

to just space out and allow the scrunchy thing up in the head to rest for a while.

and make the red little fist like thingy on the left side of chest pump harder...

cause', life's definitely more than this.

attended Jason's convo ytd. w sharon, carrie, woeilong, yeuann and new faces like maureen and edwin. (: wenjiang,marcus and jan joined soon after. took pics at the fondly remembered spots of SIM where we prayed tog and had cg tog.

had a good good good time with regg ytd. hurhur. time tog eating subway; visiting cathay's ben n jerry's and walking down city hall, find butts in ACTS. bumped into karr, utan n cindy in ACTS! hahas.

i love times like this. and this is what i deem as non-cerebral but much-cardio activity. (:

The birthday season's in the air.
picture speaks a thousand words. here goes..

xin yi's 21st- 09 August @ her place.
the otties!















i love the little ones in her household! super uber full of energy!












like this one on the swiiinnnggg!!













particularly love the girl and the little boy in front of xin yi. super high energy!














the key! (:













and now, rui's 21st. @ MOS 25Aug2006.



the encouraging otties of class that turned up!












and not forgetting i pulled utan along too! (;

..and posed for ceyu's cam. hahas.

xinyi, ceyu, ming. and ming was saying how jon kept reminding her to keep the wedding ring on! (:














and the birthday girl- lee rui rui. (: high in spirts. literally. hahas.





































and a class group shot. with jean in it. (:













third one! was cai ma ma's birthday on 30th Aug!

happy birthday cai ma ma! (:

and age was a secret... so a candle should suffice. (:

presenting cai ma ma.. (: with her birthday cakeee and purple tulip.

and the way she made her wish was quite cute la. hahas.

and thou' i seldom verbalise it.

i love u loads, mum. happy birthday.

i need a rest.

to rest and move on.

I will lie down and sleep in peace,for you alone, O LORD,make me dwell in safety.-Psalm 4:8

now back for a third time. and the final one before i really pop my head to sleep. but i think i am pretty hyped up.

maybe is the country radio on pandora now that i have just changed to.

or i am feeling a little high trying to start working out the months ahead.

don't ask me why. but i m pretty excited abt year 2007.

yeah i know. 2006 is still in the running. hahas.

but as i zoom thru the future months, i know there will be a lot of decision making to come.

and trust me, i hate decision making. peel me off bit by bit, i am not born a decision maker.

but often times, i realised the importance of decision making, and not just that, accurate and non-biased decision making.

i nv really played with the idea of going away to study for quite some time. and now as i m in my final yr here, this idea seems to be calling me back.

i welcome that idea. and i am giving this idea more attention now.

and i know how much repurcussions it will bring if i really turn this idea to reality. good and bad ones.

its not just about me alone; there are many people, many areas, many things which i have to pass thru my brain, heart and mind for "clearance".

one thing for sure, it affects the way i go in terms of my ministry. and one thing for sure, i must know that my folks are ready for it.

and got to chat with mum about it that night. and sounded pretty supportive.

but of course, as sis advised, i better then demonstrate in actions besides speech that i am serious about each and every of my decisions, and that i know what i am doing.

i better start earning my keeps. which my sis and i all know, is not sufficient if i start now anyway. hahas.

but i fully agree with sis. and seldom i do. hahahas!

that its often the thought and action that counts, to my folks at least. the physical action of demonstrating that you are doing something about it is enough. the product (i.e the amount of money earned) doesnt matter.

i know whatever the outcome may be, He wants the best for me, my family, my friends, and my fellow servants in Christ.

and to where i may be fully used by Him.

we'll see where i may go.

imagine with me, what i may be doing in where i may be in one year's time. (:

time to dream. nights world. (;

i totally adore this website that sis has recommended me.

pandora.com.

i m so thankful for having the free flow of songs that accompany me thru the night as i do my work.

so random, so shuffled. and they play your preferred genre of songs without playing the songs of the artiste that you typed in.

i love the corrs. and the genre that pandora found for me was extremely pleasing to the ears. (:

like wow. hahas.

and made me revisit a few songs that i used to listen so much to, but lost touch of em.

listening to A New Day has Come-Celine Dion.

and best part? there's praise and worship too. (:

and i have since concluded: i love pandora, cos i never know what's next.

cheap thrill? maybe. hahas. but i love random.

like now. random entry. k back to work. sensory integrative approach.....