was talking to reg online just now.

i am really very thankful to Him for everything that i have now in my life.

sometimes, it's really difficult to put down some baggages that were packed previously. i didnt really realise i was carrying them till reg highlighted them to me.

i thank God He found me. and i am able to put them down today, and give thanks with a grateful heart that, with Him, the yoke is easy, the burden is light.

love you Lord. thanks for looking after me.

past week was eventful. and was greatly touched by God's blessings in a lot of areas of my life! prayers answered! :))

evo was really homely too. i love the people. i enjoyed the planning process with mei and leslie as well. i really believe that as the people unite tog, we will experience breakthroughs tog!

RP,DI, NYP! Let's serve the Lord tog with one heart one vision! :)

though physically i wont be with this new combination, i am really excited to hear great news fr everyone! growth will definitely take place!

:)

went down to church office to collect the cheque and passed some stuff to june. june was really nice. hahas. gave me practical tips, and some handy advice on packing for my trip.

headed to vivo thereafter. eclectic group. meihwa, DI-ians, yuhui, eil, sam, kok how. nevertheless, was gd fellowship. surf's up cute! dinner was simple yet sumptous. gloria jean's was great. taking photos under the moonlight was good memory.

i want to take many many many photos of everyone to bring with me!

evo- pic with the girls!

lead me dear Lord, as i venture down under.

water bapt may 2007.

seeing this pict made me smile.

i don't know why, but it made me smile. i feel the vibes of spiritual family.

so blessed.

20 days.

and possibly, as in just a possibility, the next time i get around to see everyone will be 365+20.

tt's quite a bit.

i really wonder, how it will all be like a year later, y'know?

showered, and intended to rest earlier tonight after i reach home.

however, as i was waiting for my hair to dry, i was reading juli's blog. and she had this link to this couple's blog.

http://ashleyisourangel.blogspot.com/

as the lullaby played on, i can't help but teared. the thing is, i don't know them even.

but yeah. i was really touched by how they chose to trust God in everything. every single thing, despite losing 3 children thus far.

sometimes, in such situations that demands your faith and trust in God, one can't help but scream within their hearts..where is God in the picture?

but this couple is amazing..
"However in life, there are many things about tomorrow we don’t seem to understand but we know who holds tomorrow and we know who holds our hands."

"But God does not want us to grieve as ‘people who have no hope’ (1 Thess 4:13). Even as we grieve, God tell us the truth about where our babies have gone. They’ve been dismissed from the hospital called Earth. You and I still roam the halls, smell the medicines and eat coalescent food off plastic trays. They, meanwhile, enjoy picnics, inhale springtime and run-through knee-high flowers. We miss Ashley like crazy but we can’t deny the truth that she’s freed from all pain and struggles and tubes and incubator. She’s really happier in Heaven, in the company of all other child-angels like herself."

:)

anyway, on a lighter note, today was spent with joel, ace, huimei, liyan meeting Ps marcus, his wife stephanie and baby sonika! they came from hope germany to singapore for learning.

had some good time w stephanie, and i thoroughly enjoyed the company of this family. germans are really forthright people! :))

learnt a lot, and one thing that i have came to understand about germany is that, though many are Christians by name, they may not acknowledge that Jesus is the Messiah, and does not really have a personal relationship with God. and basically, many are passive by nature. that made sharing the truth a whole lot challenging.

baby sonika was a true joy to the family! and a "natural evangelist". a tough young lady! although the weather was really hot for her, she did not cry a bit. although she fell real hard on the floor, she just struggled to climb up and then, go running all over again! she can be sitting in the pram, waving and smiling at passer-bys. hahahas. you will have instant connection with her!

and i really love how stephanie beamed and exclaimed that she believed God made her baby this way for a greattt purpose. :))

Hoffnung Berlin = Hope Berlin.

here's Hope Germany's webbie! hahas. that is, if you understand german! :)) http://www.hoffnungberlin.de/

fruitful day. helped out in deco too. through these 2 days, i have also realised how committed the brothers and sisters are in doing a work of excellence for Jesus week in and week out. how they really practised on the instruments (for the band), the lightings and sound (MM peeps), the singers for p and w, the programmer (ensuring all things click tog), the deco team, dance team, video programmers etc etc, all for one service!

wow. spirit of excellence.

Expect "Unexpected Valentine" tomorrow for service! :))

today was church office day! :))

went down with leslie and liyan for tape listening.

i really learnt A LOTTT.

when my brain is not as zonked out as now, i ll post up my reflections.

lunched out with the duo and jasmine hahas. jas had her usual dose of giam cai.

had a gd time of fellowship. as we were sharing over lunch, i really can't help but give thanks for our family, Hope.

i love the church, the people.

and i am deeply blessed, that almost wherever we go, there's a Hope family for us. like when i went to Penang. like when i am going to Melb. it's amazing. :)

i thank God for the global minded people, who have decided to plant churches in the different cities, with one vision of building strong and biblical churches in their local land and all over the world.

one God, one vision, one mission.

Matthew 28.

learnt a lot from CLM ytd.

i pray that i will have a heart big for people. i pray that i will be a willing vessel to be used in any way by Him. i pray, that i will be sensitive to His calling. i pray that i will be obedient, and sacrificial to be upward and outward looking.

i can start by praying for the land that i am stepping foot on.

marche-d with nemo, ace and yuyu aft hope resources meeting today. totally great time, except for the part where we were trying hard to stuff the many different types of meat down. man, we are no vege people. no one bought veges! hahas.

i want to love Him, more than anything, and anyone else.

soul desire, sole desire.

although it wrenches my heart many times, i know that i will never go wrong when i follow His lead. i want to be obedient, i want to do the right thing. i am giving my best, and all that i've got. i've got to admit, i have an emotional streak in me. i still can't bear to go.
but, it all seems to me, i should just let go, and go.

Psalm 118:1 : Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever.

spent good time with class peeps yesterday at Aspire cafe. i really didn't know it was THAT near church office!

the turn up was almost complete and we had the place to ourselves. i loved the fact that we are to write on the cards to affirm and encourage everyone! thanks for the effort that Sil and team put in for the nicely made cards!

i love OT0402. like what rui said, she had the privilege of naming it the "Legendary" when she was the yr 1 class rep. indeed, i am proud that we lived up to it. :))

i pray that as this journey goes, we will still be connected in one way or another. Be it as a clinician, or in some other profession, i hope our paths will still cross somehow.

it's graduation again. counting my kindergarten's, it's the fifth in my lifetime already. :)

but somehow, it's really through these past 3 years, that i felt i studied about "life", and not books.

anyway, spent the night at suet's. with steph and elisa. suet's hse is just BEHIND church office. hurhur. no wonder she knows Hope, even before i mention it. hahas.

this girl's with me to church in melb! wheeeeeee!

off to nexus!

the Legendary.

certain things, i still can't let go.
but i believe in Him, i am an overcomer. :)

i ll miss corrinne may's concert. its in aug. do get ur tix. :)) she's great.

anw, i thought the previous personality post thingy described me rather aptly.

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what a mel night. ha.

to sum up my thoughts-

Untitled.

I really dont know how to start

there's really plenty on my heart.

knowing my future's in His hands

dreams, hopes and plans.

Fear fled,

joy sets.

i began to ask Him

where does this whole journey goes

sometimes, i feel that i often stepped into the unknown,

the matters of mind, and sometimes the heart.

i plead to the Spirit

to reveal His ways to me.

i tried to dicepher

and found answers through print.

But i realise, no amount of acquired knowledge

can ever satisfy the quest

until you sit by His feet,

and listen to His soft voice, in peace.

'My child, stand by me.

Haven't you experienced my heartbeat?

Trust in me, and lean not on thy own understanding,

and imitate Christ's humility.

In all things, I am with you.

As you remain in Me..'

-mx 050607

random: glad to hear your voice.

You Have A Type B+ Personality

You're a pro at going with the flow You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer A total joy to be around, people crave your stability. While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity. Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done You're passionate - just selective about your passions

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

heartbeat. in a summary.

• its pretty surreal, that i have approximately 40 days left with my loved ones before i poof off for a year. heart: feels funny.
• missions conference yesterday was powerful. serving Jesus is really a privilege. heart: touched.
• i desire to develop a missions heartbeat. it always starts from somewhere. let now be the somewhere. heart: impacted, greatly.
• i din sleep a wink last night, though i retire to bed at 10.30pm, and tried to shut my eyes. heart: avoidance.
• i cried, for a friend. heart: burdened.
• i prayed, for the friend. heart: uplifted, and assured.
• i cried, about 1 thing that has been weighing me down. heart: confused.
• i prayed, and in worship. heart: peace.

i realised that as i grow up, my heart has undergone various heart conditions over the years.

just like biologically, heart is a muscle, it strengthens when you exercise and work it correctly; i feel that my heart has had a good workout for the past 5 years.

it has strengthened, in love, in burden, in warmth, in sensitivity, in passion.

not by my own works, but by partnering with the Holy Spirit, every minute and second.

heart-to-hearts. His to ours.