was just discussing abt this casually with my sis

and i just checked my mail and saw leslie's mail. guess it summarizes what we said. (:

Subject: The husband store
Date: Wed, 22 Mar 2006 00:41:50 +0800>>>>>>>>>>>>

A store that sells husbands has just opened in New York City, where a woman may go to choose a husband. Among the instructions at the entrance is a description of how the store operates. You may>>>>>>visit the store ONLY ONCE !

There are six floors and the attributes of the men increase as the shopper ascends the flights. There is, however, a catch . . .. you may choose any man from a particular floor, or you may choose to go up a floor, but you cannot go back down except to exit the building! So, a woman goes to the Husband Store to find a husband . .

On the first floor the sign on the door reads: Floor 1 - These men have jobs and love the Lord.

The second floor sign reads: Floor 2 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, and love kids.

The third floor sign reads: Floor 3 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, and are extremely good looking. "Wow," she thinks, but feels compelled to keep going.

She goes to the fourth floor and sign reads: Floor 4 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, are drop- dead good looking and help with the housework. "Oh, mercy me!"she exclaims, "I can hardly stand it!"

Still, she goes to the fifth floor and sign reads: Floor 5 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love>>>>>>kids, are drop- dead gorgeous, help with the housework, and have a strong romantic streak. She is so tempted to stay, but she goes to the sixth floor and the sign reads:

Floor 6 - You are visitor 4,363,012 to this floor. There are no men on this floor. This floor exists solely as proof that women are impossible to please. Thank you for shopping at the Husband Store.

Watch your step as you exit the building, and have a nice day!

(:

today is such a wayang day. hahas. ask deb. she knows what happened.

i believe no one will ever tread on chua family's toes again. hahahas. haiyooo.

want to know the story. ask me. it was sooooooooo wayang until it sapped all my energy. heh.

but certainly, i thought it was a gd experience. for my sis and me. (:

anyway, i really really enjoyed the choir prac ytd. learnt a lot, sang a lot.

hmm, the stressors of school are kicking in bit by bit. we are all feeling it already. library's like a warzone, so much so i detest going in there now. hahah. except for some blowing of air con. heh.

alrights! sleep go sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep!!!

dearest Priscilla,

blessed birthday.

am ever so thankful that i went over the other time to do survey with u. did not expect that a friendship will blossom after then.

really appreciate ur effort and love in this friendship! :)

miaozhi darl is going for membership class!

and cindy too! :) so happy for her, really. :)

a week of happenings: first week back at school, FYP grp known, decided to go for choir aud and et cetera et cetera et cetera.

to you: great seeing u today. :) stay strong, stay firm, stay courageous for Him. rem, i ll giv u a ride, no matter how many donkey yrs later i take to pass driving if i ever go for it? hahahas!

glad to share my life with u! u r a strong girl. u shall not be defeated.

O. jus remembered a cedar cheer song, that i always enjoyed cheering with my class during jogging sessions in sch last time. dedicated to u! ;)

We are from Cedar, we shall not be moved.
We are from Cedar, we shall not be moved.
Like the trees that are planted by the water side.
We shall not be moved!

as i changed the lyrics:
You are the child of God, you shall not be moved.
You are the child of God, you shall not be moved.
Like the trees that are planted by the water side..
You shall not be moved!

Can call me to sing the cheer for u! hahahas! You will stay strong, stay firm, stay resilient! looking forward to the completion of the race with you.

jiayou woman! jiayou.

have been thinking abt...who am I?

a tough qn. isn't it.

and, today, 21st July, marks the 4th year of my walk with Him. :)

time flies. wow. :)

back to tutor the 3 boys after so long. was expecting a long night, but it turned out that the boys always manage to make my day somehow.

cynthia, the new volunteer who is partnering with me in the tutoring of the 3 boys, made me realise that ernest actually doesnt know his alphabets. and he is already in sec 1 NT.

and arthur told me that actually all along, C, D, E and T sounds the same to him.

so spend the last half hr doing some lip reading. tried the "air" method also by talking to arthur's back of hand to help him get a feel of how the alphabets should be pronounced.

arthur is getting more conscious of himself. he really wants to pronounce each and every single word correctly. probably he is in a hearing environment now, and he is feeling the pressure to speak correctly. and perhaps even interactions with girls as well.

boys his age. tsk.

arthur is considered the lucky one already. the other 2's hearing cant be compared to his, and hence their pronounciation pales in comparison too.

nevertheless, i pray that they will thrive in this hearing environment and fend for themselves. really.

Dear GOD,

I don't know what my days will be like, without You.

I know I am loving You more than yesterday. And i pray, it will continue on for the many tomorrows ahead.

Love, xiu

i know this is really crazy. first day of my year 3 is tmr, or rather, later.

and....

I AM NOT SLEEPING YET. i can't seem to get to sleepp. rolled and turn and finally could not stand it any longer.

i dont know is it the coke light that i drank earlier on taking effect. if it really is, it shall replace kopi in future.

talking abt that, i am trying to cut down on my caff intake. i really need to detox all this rubbish out. so, i have a tiny treatment plan for myself.

i have been adding milo and one teaspoonful of coffee powder for breakfast drink. and not pure kopi. that's step one.

but more often than not, i am tempted to drink coffee for lunch cos i really dont want to risk not being able to concentrate whilst seeing a patient!

hmmm. i m really quite determined not to allow caffeine to take over my life. i can make it without caffeine. amen. haha.

talking about not being able to sleep, i think i know the ans. its not the coke light. i know is just that my head is really full. full to the brim.

so many things in my head. my heart is connected, and is feeling the weight. not the dread-y weight? but, just cant help but feeling a little heavy.

i guess its just that sooo many things have happened, that i dunno where to start, and perhaps, even where to end.

and sometimes, i will just stare in the mirror while i am brushing my teeth and question myself about myself.

sometimes, i m really not sure who i really am. sometimes, i wonder if i am up to the mark. sometimes, i question where i am where i am now. sometimes, i m not really certain if i am really extending the purpose that He has for me for where He has placed me.

u know, sometimes it really scares me. it really grips me to know how fine the walking rope is, in walking towards Him? imagine those acrobats who does all the walking on thin ropes in the high airs. yeah. thats what i meant.

you cannot afford to be negligent. you cannot afford to lose your concentration. you cannot afford to stop, sit on the rope and whine when u feel scared or tired. no you cant, and you shouldnt.

you just walk on! and walk each step with greater faith. walk each step knowing you are for sure, one step closer to the finishing spot. you walk on knowing that you will die once you stop your momentum. and dont ever think of turning back! its crazy and ridiculus.

but its also the very me that i m crying to the Lord not too long ago. why did u put me in such a spot, literally.

why did u allow me to go thru such exhilarating walks.

why did u send me to walk on such 1mm rope.

why did u even choose me.

and i dont know if anyone, someone or everyone can tell, i am actually quite an emo person.

but i have learnt to take captivity of unworthy thoughts as i grew closer to Him for the past yrs.

i am still the old emo mx. but with more self-control as well.

and i hate the feeling of wanting to whine so LOUDLY but yet at the same time, i feel disgusted at myself for whining. hahas.

haiya.

and so I was reminded:

that You put exhilarating walks for me so to expose me. to the vulnerabilities of the environment. to the harshest of the world. and at the same time, to experience the adrenaline of really walking at the edge for You.

You made me walk on tight thin ropes to help me watch and place each and every single of my step CAREFULLY and STEADILY. a careless step, down u go.

You chose me, cos You have prepared me. You have trained me on the grounds to walk on ropes. Now, try something more exciting. challenge the ropes in air. its a privilege.

the journey with the Lord takes my breath away many times u know? literally, figuratively yada yada yada. and i feel soooooooo honoured, really, to be able to serve Him.

though my legs are shivering fr the height, i know i am not going to fall.

i am really quite determined to meet Him on the other side.

and I am ready to strike away the word "quite" quite soon.

yeah. bring it on. :)

shuling sent this. come home running. a father's song to a lost child.

Oh, heart of mine
Why must you stray
From one so fair
You run away
And one more time you have to pay
The heaviness of needless shame

Oh, heart of mine
Come back home
You've been too long
Out on your ownAnd
He's been there all along
Watching for you down the road

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
And he understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

Oh, child of God
So dearly loved
And ransomed by
The Savior's blood
And called by name daughter and son
Wrapped in the robe of righteousnes

Handwriting Analysis
What Your Writing Reveals About You

Mx, your handwriting reveals that you are Sociable

Your writing style reflects that you tend to feel connected to others, and that you help to facilitate that connection through your clear writing. Is it your left margin, your top margin, or your word spacing that gives you away?

feeling weak now. tummy hurts!

i really have no idea how to make the pain go away.

anyway. tmr have to submit the management case. and i have not really integrated the question in my brain.

more work tonight then. hahas.

just checked my mail and saw that hb emailed me 3 days ago. after observations. his short comments and eval of that session. hahas.

ok, one more week to go! woohoooo!