Generation NEXT 06'- Poly/DI Church Camp @ downtown east!

14-17March2006. :)

WOTS400!

a friend smsed me this today:

" For christians, prayer is not an option, but an opportunity. in prayer, expect setbacks, but refuse retreat. Don't tell the LORD how big the problem is, tell the problem how great the LORD is!"

so listen up 'Problems'. u r too small and insignificant to shroud the greatness of our LORD!

i don't really dare to look at the clock now.

but i got to wake up at 6.30 tmr morning. and i have no idea why i am still up. can't sleep.
not as if its my wedding. its my aunt's!

perhaps its the coffee just now. sheesh.

munching cookies baked by jorris.. absolutely scruMpolicious. hahaahahhas!

don't you find the world warp?

why is it that things like the SIT video saga can spread like a plague, without much effort, everyone has seen it, heard about it, understand it.

Why won't their hearts be as open to the Truth, the Living Word?

i think its all about Desire. when u desire for something, u go for it.

told u. Man are hard-to-understand creatures.

praise the LORD!

i really felt like crying just now. seriously. like i can feel the intense fear gripping my heart.

nothing big actually. but i really felt cold all over.

i thought i lost the word document!

and i really stayed up to do..i was half dying staring at the screen. i recall the experience as r.e.p.u.l.s.i.v.e.

and the idea of RE-DOING wasnt exact fantastic. and the deadline for this epractical is like..today?

and in my hopelessness..i jus kept mumbling to God..and kept shaking my thighs and biting my lips..

mx's nervous breakdown symptoms. hahas.

yeah and i can laugh now. cos i found it! thanks Ceyu!!! so IT savvy. a call away!!

Praise the Lord. phew. i promise, i will SAVE, EMAIL and SAVE EVERYWHERE my assignments the next time round.

i have a weak heart.

i know i am a bit lagggg..

but..

i just realised..

corrinne may blogs. hahahas.

www.corrinnemay.blogspot.com. :)

and i am dying from doing the home and comm e practical. my eyes cannot take it already.

but..

do i have a choice?

No.

So?

back to work. enough of corrinnemay.

...............

saw this on xuan's bloggg. JOhari window! i just learnt this in jo's lesson. ;)

come come. friends. do this for me. gam sia. :) hahhahhas.

http://kevan.org/johari?name=-mx

so blessed today!

shareen gave me a box, with cute pics of cows on it!

and deb surprised me with a huge stuffed cow when we went home tog!

Thanks dears!

went for teh tarik with huimei, joella, huishan, deb, hannah and jiahui. after dinner today ;)

was supposed to discuss with huimei abt the upcoming unit CG. and the conversation drifted to about relationships, about life partners..hahaha (tt's how far women can digress, for ur info. ;) )

and inevitably, we started sharing about what kind of character are we looking for in our life partners. and seriously, i think night time breeds openness. hehs.

and as i was walking home just now, i was very reminded of cm's song- mr. beasley.

the song may sound kind of silly, but its so real. and i think the song really brings out the essence of my thoughts as well. hahas.

the essence of "being urself".

was sharing to huimei, that admist the ideal characteristics of my life partner, i am looking for someone who can make me feel that i am being "myself" when with him, and he too, is comfortable for being himself.

dunno why, but this is a v impt factor for me.

so with vday coming up, this's song for ur listening ear. enjoy ;)

M R . B E A S L E Y
Written by Corrinne May Ying Foo
Copyright 1997, Corrmay Gourmet Music (ASCAP)
You don't have to drive a fancy car
Don't have to quote me Shakespeare just to woo me
Yeah I see your nervous laughter when you're trying to crack some joke
Well, you don't fool me
I'd like to see your eyes through those goggles that you're wearing
Don't try to hide away

Just be yourself, Mr. Beasley
I don't need your show of attitude
Coz' it's your soul that makes me fall in love with you

You don't know this but I see you in the church when you are praying,
You just move me
And my friend Sue she tells me you've been teaching kids for free
Mr. Philanthropy
I'd like to see your eyes through those goggles that you're wearing
Don't try to hide away

Just be yourself, Mr. Beasley
I don't need your show of attitude
Coz' it's your soul that makes me fall in love with you
Be yourself, Mr. Beasley
I don't need your show of attitude
Coz' it's your soul that makes me fall in love with you

I'd like to see your eyes through those goggles that you're wearing
Don't try to hide away

sometimes, as i walk along the streets or anywhere, alone, with busy bustle passing me by,

or even as i am squeezing with people back to back on trains.

in lifts with fellow campus mates.

sitting beside a girl of my age on a bus.

walking out of school, with chattering campus mates in front of me. and the list goes on and on....

i wonder,

"who will i be today, if i hadn't known Him?"

i was trying to picture myself, my life priorities, my interest, and how i would spend my time..

haven really had a conclusion as yet.

but one thing i'm definite of as of now, i will never have the willingness to attempt things which tests my comfort zone, which threatens my security if i hadnt known Him. i m very sure of that.

I am very thankful for Him living in me, a living and divine security in which i can build my life upon.

and its simply because of this identity as a child of God, i came to see myself trying things in which i would have stood in fear facing , if i hadnt known Him.

and it doesnt mean that i experience success everytime i take that step of faith and try as well.

but amazingly, u just have the assurance that this is not the end of, but the process of experiencing His presence and power in your life.

gd nights. ;)

AND! i want to give thanks for someone!

Yes its you Silvana!

THANKS for taking time to do up a personalised timetable! I am really blessed!! i needed a soft copy NICE timetable, and i got it thru u! its nice..i totally love it!

honestly, i was physically tired fr head to toe today. or rather ytd..as in wednesday. ok u get the drift. i still think its today. hahas.

was wondering how i am going to really to stay alert to mit up the girls.

i dunno. haha. i just prayed. for strength and that i will do my best. ;)

and, i totally loved today! i was reminded of this verse in proverbs 11:25..he who refreshes others will himself be refreshed. so apt. so true.

know what's a more powerful agent than coffee to keep awake? ;) (haha i was just reminded of chipmunk's decaf coffee..haha)

presence of God.

i dont want to get caught into the cliches of things. but as i reflect upon today, the Word of God really refreshed me. I felt conviction strengthening as i share with nah and han.

even when i met deb at nydc after 'em, i still felt empowered by the Holy Ghost to spend time with this girl.

shared with nah and han abt the 2 bible characters, Joshua and Moses. i recall Jasmine sharing with full conviction about leadership.

and i suddenly could understand the conviction even better when i verbalise it to others. now i know..no wonder they always say its always different being a consumer from a producer. the level of conviction deepens. :)

and also what i've learnt fr sun's seminar. today, something else stirred. its abt this point of spending time of every moment of everyday with the person, if u want to know this person personally..

hear Him, anytime, anywhere. thru ppl, thru circumstances, thru His word, thru worship..in quietness. anywhere.

don't limit God with the capacity of my own human brain, mx. if i can ever limit it within the boundary of my own brain, He won't be God.

i was exceptionally hit again by the analogy Dr keith made..about using our own understanding to interpret God and His Word, without Him. its as if putting a CD into a toaster. its incompatible.

i enjoyed the time exploring different qns with Deb as well, even to topics of change in physical appearance..

my personal stand to her is this..something which i use when i am stuck in dilemmas and indecisiveness..

i ask myself..:mx, if i do this, will it extend the KOG?

if Yes, why not? Nike! (Just do it!)

if it doesnt affect at all (in other words, no effect if u do it or not), then u have a choice of doing it or u don't. doesnt matter at all actually.

BUT, if it HINDERS the extension of the KOG, then, don't do it.

so far, i found this personal benchmark to be helpful in helping the indecisive me, to keep the main thing the main thing.. thou i think i still fail many times.

i m still learning. teach me Lord, to live my life thru ur eyes.

Blessed 23rd, my dearest leader liyan! thanks for investing your youth in our lives!

Blessed 21st, lenny! i thank the Lord for the friendship we share!

Blessed 21st, colin! thanks for your leadership as a coach in Hope resources!

these guys have been a blessing to me in their own ways! :) thanks!

this weekend has been amazingly powerful. i felt that every single teaching was for me. really.

it all started from saturday, with the sermon Ps Lawrence preached. I always enjoy the way Ps Lawrence delivers his teaching. he always conveys his msg thru a movie clip, thru activities. i am someone who learns from impression.

back to the main stuff. guess whats the title?

Love in Action.

So apt. i need that.

Ps Lawrence shared about this guy in the Bible, Philemon. He is someone who has no unforgiving bone in his body! He always appreciate GOD for the good in others (Philemon 1:4-5).

Ps Lawrence shared that he is "thanksgiving-challenged". i can absolutely identify with that. its not very natural of me to want to give thanks for every single thing that GOD has placed in my life. I find it easier to play the devil's advocate most of the time.

He also shared that God wants to stretch our love. i was like..FWAH. God u customised this teaching for me. I can almost envision myself frantically waving to GOd with both of my hands.."YeS YES! It's me LORD!! I feel so limited in my capacity to love!"

attended CLM. jasmine shared to us about being 'charismatic' leaders. i love the way she puts it. its so true.
Do you have... C.H.A.R.I.S.M.A?

C are
H elp
A ffimative
R elate
I nitiative
S mile!
A vailable.

and guess what...each time she reveals one alphabet, i felt like.."ops. i don't have this. o no, i have NONE of that.."

argh. and trust me. the feeling wasnt gd.

but guess wad, i felt really encouraged, and am determined to turn tables. to grow in these areas! there wont be any excuse that His kingdom wont advance then.

its possible. with God, all things are possible. :)

more i've learnt. but got to KO now. gd nights world.

and happy birthday dearest deb!!

0940hr

i love waking up early nowadays. i feel gd, i feel ready for a great day ahead! i feel that i am ready to embrace the challenges ahead as well. and seriously, with waking up early, i feel right with God and everything. i love the breeze thats blowing in now. i love the sun that's on shining over my table top now. i am enjoying my breakfast of beehoon now (now they taste delicious, the used to taste soggy by the time i wake up...). i am enjoying the noise the floor cleaner is making outside my house now cos i am someone who works with a bit of noise (which i am usually irritated by cos i am trying to steal sleep).

i love mornings! good morning Lord!

i remember ps ben once shared.."do u often say: Good Lord! It's morning...... Or Good Morning, Lord!" i think i have been stuck in the previous for very very very long. time to move on!

enjoy every single day of our lives, it should be that way. but often, i am slowly being chewed away by many worries of life..

time to sit down, relax, and starbucks with God.

i thank God for the past one week. I feel "right-er" with Him.

after reflections of 2005. be ready for a 2006.

preparing to meet the camp comm soon! i will be doing materials. i m really really excited for this camp, tho i highly doubt that i can make it cos its during my clinicals.

nevertheless, i am thankful to be given such an opportunity to lead in the area of materials!

a new experience. :)

"This is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it. :)"

Just woke up. had quite a gd rest after ytd's match with ngee ann. amazingly, and i'm sure it was by God's grace, we won!

not trying to be holy or what ppl often misunderstood as "everything-is-God-God-God-in-good-times".

at least i felt God's empowerment for myself. as i seek strength from Him, He empowers me during the stress-est periods. i feel that hey, i am in control.

i'm jus glad we all tried our best! its great to see everyone putting in the utmost effort despite slim chances.

esp pearlyn and fishcake who has nv paired up before! but u guys did well! and zixian as wel, who nv play for like 2 yrs??!

anyway, josie just sent me this email. thought it was pretty interesting. enjoy! :)

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loads..heap loads of things happened just as new year started. pretty overwhelmed initially..but slowly..slowly..i think it all made sense to me. :) thank God for His unfailing faithfulness.

last week was a complete mess for me. a crazy one. a terrible one even i would say..but perhaps thru the lenses of mine, it seemed really horrible.

i did not understand why everything happened all at the same time? i felt like a squeeze ball that was entirely squeezed to bits, with intense pressure from every aspect of my life.

i guess wed was a great learning lesson for me. i will bear it in mind. painful lesson, but it really brought me to a much deeper level of understanding and trust in God. and really..i could not bring myself to concentrate for the whole of the next day. i was actually brooding..dwelling..and even mentally rehearsing some words that were said in my brain..

the feeling was horrid. i hate the feeling whenever my emotions get out of hands. seriously. and the really torturous part was tt i had to continue life on thurs as normal. no time for a breather. many times i just had to stay in the toilet to pray.

a moulding time. make or break.

of cos had blessings as well! Hope Resource Annual Appreciation Night was on fri! me and shuyi, jitsy and david as well did the deco and mini door gifts. ;) i really love the spirit of these ppl, ever full of energy and joy in serving God. non-complaining, ever-rejoicing. funnily, but i thought that that night, it was really the time i managed to break the "bondage" of dwelling finally. cos i found more reasons to serve with joy than to wallow in self-pity! self-pity- OUT!

though it was a simple gathering, i truly enjoyed myself tt night. i thought it was a warm atmosphere of people. i m v inspired by this sister especially from adults grp- xue mei. she is extremely sincere.. and i think that her sincerity moves me greatly. and what surprises me what that ive gotten the best new volunteer award..hahahs. really. *cross my heart* i nv imagine that whole chunk of description was mee. but thanks so much for that affirmation. it encouraged me a lot. :)

celebrated hannah's and joanna's birthday as well! i'm ready for an exciting journey with u hannah. a convenanted journey. :)

and joanna! although i managed to attend just half an hr...but i could really sense the love in ur family and extended family! it really warms me! thanks for being such a great host!

sat's svc was awesome. it ministered to me in a very personal level. God, you really know my heart condition. it was battered and torn, but ur love mended it...and really, Your love, still amazes me.. Your love, really melts me.

i dont know how many people could see tt, but i am someone who is not quite expressive in emotions. but i dont think that equates to me being emotionless..in fact, i will say i m emotion-ful..hahah not emotional tho', ok, if u get what i am trying to say..hahas.

xuan once mentioned, i could still vividly remember, that he feels that i am like a man.

hardy and yeah..not really letting feelings get over the better of me.

but i think, not really true either, its just tt its happening all within me..cos i m poor at expressing. hahas.

whatever it is, just remember to realign ur heart with God. :)

Lord, . i do not want to turn cold to everything..keep me warm. my heart, keep it pumping hard! i give thanks for ur gentle encouragement and nudge thru the worship and Word!

wow. u know what. it was an extreme feeling of victory over defeat that day. i rejoiced, i felt freee from the bondage of words, of discouragement, of hurts.

i know that, if Christ is in the centre of it all, everything is going to be working out beautifully.. :)

mx, relax. learn to let go, and let Him.

"letting go of me, holding on to You.."

had cg today. i love it. you know why? cos 2 special people joined us! cg must be beyond a holy huddle! but one with new faces new faces new faces!

shareen's first time with us at cg, and pris as well. ;)

i love today as well, cos i get to spend time with everyone.

and pris, i am truly thankful for ur openness in sharing during cg. i was touched by ur sincerity and willingness to share. i do believe as well, that this friendship is not a coincidence. :)

and of cos, i do hope that one day, u will recognise that He loves u, He cares for u. and He sends u friends too. :)

in Ecclesiates 4, it says "Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work: If one falls down, his friend can help him up. "

uve been a blessing to me, really. encouraged me a lot, in ways in which u may not know, but yups, i really give thanks for having u around.

wheee....time to rest.

with Christ in the vessel, I can SMILE at the storm. :)


Col 3:23..Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, 24since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.

today's the third day of christmas. :)

was watching grey's anatomy just now. a fantastic show. i am really attracted to the show. i dunno why.

it managed to capture my attention for the full length of the show. usually, i will be really fidgety by midlength of the show? but the story managed to keep me on.

about a bunch of interns. who were having their internship at SGH..hahahhahaha! wellwell, not singapore general hospital, but seattle grace hospital.

perhaps its cos i am having attachment now, tts why i feel exceptionally like this show speaks to me. hahas! the hospital scenes, the supervisor scene, the canteen scene, the books scene, the friends scene, the patients scene..but i think just that i dont have the operating table scene. (thank GOD very much for that!) hahahhas.

i really admire the doctors in this show. their commitment. their ability to handle stress. performing under stress. and yet, not forgetting fun and some humour as well. :)

the key person which attracted me is of cos, none other than meredith.

a few lines which she shared captured my heart.

things like..something like tt.."i cannot think of a hundred ways why i want to be a doctor, but i can think of a thousand ways why i want to quit."

and she still hung on. :)

i think the key is about PASSION. passion drives. passion stirs ur heart. passion boils ur blood.

when she shared that, it really struck me. cos i was just thinking about the issue of being a Christ follower as well. i was just thinking back of the one yr ive spent in the poly ministry. last christmas to this yr's.

and i was just reading the card deb gave me this morn. she wrote along the borders, something like : Member, cg mate, shep, leader..

i was thinking. hey, i din realised that. but yeah, its a process of my spiritual growth for the past one yr. thank God for Deb who reminded me with the card.

really. sometimes, its just so hard to state down a hundred reasons why i am still serving Him, or even leading a flock for Him, with the amount of rejections, misunderstandings, commitment, tears, sweat, time, energy..everything.

and for the above same reasons, its so simple to come up with a thousand reasons (or should i say excuses..haha) why i should quit.

but, as i ponder, i realised, whoever told u the statement which has the higher number of reasons wins? :)

i only need One reason, of credibility and Truth, to make me retain this commitment for Him. and of cos, the reason is Jesus.

not saying these cos its christmas tho.

i find it hard, or perhaps even impossible, for those who truly experience Jesus, to want to leave Him and forsake Him. no way.

this is my 4th "Christ"mas. Christmas with Christ in it. :) amazing journey.

was not a bed of roses. had doubts. carnal nature. driven by the world many times.

but i thank Him for not giving up on me. for the many times, He pruned me and showed His grace upon me.

and also for the many people who did not give up on me as well, who really poured out their life for me. thanks.

for this Christmas thanksgiving, it was important for me to realise, that i am here, because someone had the faith, that i will come to know Jesus one day, no matter how impossible it may seem in human understanding.

and i thank God for their Faith.

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see..."- Hebrews 11:1

sometimes, i try to imagine my life now without Jesus. rewinding my days back to 21 July 2002. And starting again from there to now.. 27 Dec 2005.

Hmm..

i will still be someone who is very driven by achievements, someone who is easily stressed out, someone who is ever self-centred, someone who cannot be bothered to talk to people whenever she is tired. someone who complains. someone who will never think of doing beyond what's required, someone contented with life. someone who aims to work in an occupation which pays superbly well. or maybe, someone who is happily hitched with some guy now. Hahahhahahahhas!

perhaps, no one can really identify the amount of grace poured in me except myself. I am not a saint now. definitely not. i m still full of flaws, falling short of a lot of standards.

but the love of God really compells me, to follow Jesus's example, to people He met.

When u seek Him with all your mind, soul, heart and strength, its amazing how He can work through u. Often, i do stupid things that i feel like i am the most foolish person on earth, or by human standards, but time and time again, He carried me through in circumstances where His grace comforts me and strengthens me. Beyond my understanding. His protection upon me is always there. when i am desperate for help, He sents people who helps me just in the way i need. whenever i find it impossible to finish a task, He provides me with strength, resources and even the right people to carry me thru. many many other testimonies.

Really. Jesus. You ve showed me the reason to live.

not joking. i am still up. :)
dont know why. i think its mainly due to the fact that christmas is here. feeling a little excited. geees.

there will be a mini celebration at the rehab centre tmr. ceyu weiting me and irene performing an item..hahahhahahhas! disney medlies! dots right.

but i think there's effort there! so i think the patients will be entertained by us! hahahhahs (i will definitely pray so..hahha)

currently, praying for courage over certain areas in my life.

help me overcome them by ur strength o Lord. :)

oooo and our dear Maple Queen made my names using MAple stuff!!! o, like duh. hahahha
but dunno wht now cannot load on here. tmr!

and i finally managed to get a song going here! but it takes yrs to d/l!

sent by yuhan to me. love this song.

simple, yet so ministering.

and with kids singing it. that makes it even sweeter. :)

took ten min just now jus to purely listen to it again and again, sing along, and let the lyrics stir within me.

"With Your hand in mine, I'll walk where You'll lead me...." i exceptionally love this line..

off to rest. nights world.

;)

Provervs 3:5 (NIV)- Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding....

its really rare for me to be online at this hour when there is clinicals the nx day.

2.04 AM.

i hear christmas. i smell christmas. i taste christmas. i feel christmas. i see christmas. i love christmas.

althou this time round, i am really pressed for time. no christmas gifts shopping as yet, nevertheless, i am feeling all excited.

and altho orchard road seems a little quieter this year, it seemed to me a much more meaningful one as well.

the activities really bring out the Essence of Christmas. what Christmas is all about. :)

went narnia carnival w pris ytd! eh honestly, the size of the carnival was a little disappointing. however, saw a few familiar faces who are volunteers! like uncle desmond, joanne and some others who were singing on stage!

went into the wardrobe. it really triggered me to want to catch the movie. went borders today. saw the narnia bk. i had no idea narnia was written so long ago!

oh wells. ignorance. i know.

i am certainly looking forward to everything! there will be carolthon on wed, ttsh rehab mini therapist cum patient party! the 2 services on fri night and sat! the visitation of Hongkong cafe aft svc on sat! and stay over at ECP! wooohooo!

tho i am tired physically at times, i thank the Lord for His providence and strength for each new day. :)

was lookin at the outdoor photo exhibition outside borders today whilst waiting for liyan to come. the pictures were beautiful. each picture had its story to tell.

the theme was "Earth from above", where all the photos were taken from the helicoptor.

splendid views.

but among so many, the last one struck me the most. the picture showed Lake Logipi, Suguta Valley in Kenya. in the description, it mentioned about greater flamingos.

and i tried searching for them in the photo. little did i realised, the tiny spots around the lake were the flamingos themselves! THERE WERE SO MANY!!!

but something struck in my heart immediately. something about there are so many of us out there, so so many. each one of us may appear more or less the same, in terms of physical aspects, or even life stage. YET, He knows each and every one of us by name. He knows each one of us as an unique individual....i m thoroughly amazed.

www.yannarthusbertrand.org. By Yann Arthus Bertrand- "Earth From Above".

ok..before i leave, hope this clip entertains many!!
http://www.syfc.org.sg/christmas05/hokkien.htm

nights world. :)

i know its a little..dusty right here. hahahs! time to do something about it huh. hahahas

well. i dont know why. physically i am just so drained day everyday.

but guess what? i am feeling so excited within me during this season.

this excitement and joy i cant contain within me. wow.

i m someone who is not really very capable of expressing my emotions, my thoughts, my feelings very well outwardly, u can be sure of that.

i really love this season. i really love christmas periods.

its a very fuzzy feeling. a very meaningful period.

and here to YOU! hahhahahas!

i always give thanks to the Lord for u. always.

and even though u made urself v clear each time, i m still busked in hope, faith and excitement for u. i dont know why. :)

we'll see. no matter how long it may take. we'll see.

;)

reality finally set in today.

i felt the tweeny weeny bit of me saying 'o Lord, i simply don't have enough time to do Your Work! u will understand my situation, isn't it??'

and the next moment, the Holy Spirit stirred within me a really uneasy feeling.

What a really bad EXCUSE u've got, mx.

Indeed, its of no new news that clinicals can almost drive u to a max point of madness most of the times, leaving u with a life thats wake up, clinicals, either back to school library to look up journals, if not, back home at night to plan ur treatment plans for ur patients (which is wee hrs by then), sleep (or should i say just simply lying down..). and then, up u go again, wake up, clinicals......the vicious cycle goes on.

and it will go on n on for the next one month.

supposedly.

but somehow, within me, i felt a nudge of challenge.

a challenge to break out of this vicious cycle of routine. and for the past 2 days, i m really being thrown into such challenges.

i could hardly move my brain at 5.30pm sharp, where i have to attend resource meeting on mon night and led CG ytd night.

but guess what? The Lord really refreshes when you realign ur life with Him as the centre. :)

negativity do seep in at times. they try to steal my joy, my excitement, my rest in Him from me. it plants disappointments and fears in me as well.

BUT, i am STRUCK BUT NOT DOWN. amen?

i will thrive! by His grace, i will truly enjoy this season, of clinicals, and of course, this magnificent harvest!

17"Come, follow me," Jesus said, "and I will make you fishers of men."- Mark 1:17