The birthday season's in the air.
picture speaks a thousand words. here goes..

xin yi's 21st- 09 August @ her place.
the otties!















i love the little ones in her household! super uber full of energy!












like this one on the swiiinnnggg!!













particularly love the girl and the little boy in front of xin yi. super high energy!














the key! (:













and now, rui's 21st. @ MOS 25Aug2006.



the encouraging otties of class that turned up!












and not forgetting i pulled utan along too! (;

..and posed for ceyu's cam. hahas.

xinyi, ceyu, ming. and ming was saying how jon kept reminding her to keep the wedding ring on! (:














and the birthday girl- lee rui rui. (: high in spirts. literally. hahas.





































and a class group shot. with jean in it. (:













third one! was cai ma ma's birthday on 30th Aug!

happy birthday cai ma ma! (:

and age was a secret... so a candle should suffice. (:

presenting cai ma ma.. (: with her birthday cakeee and purple tulip.

and the way she made her wish was quite cute la. hahas.

and thou' i seldom verbalise it.

i love u loads, mum. happy birthday.

i need a rest.

to rest and move on.

I will lie down and sleep in peace,for you alone, O LORD,make me dwell in safety.-Psalm 4:8

now back for a third time. and the final one before i really pop my head to sleep. but i think i am pretty hyped up.

maybe is the country radio on pandora now that i have just changed to.

or i am feeling a little high trying to start working out the months ahead.

don't ask me why. but i m pretty excited abt year 2007.

yeah i know. 2006 is still in the running. hahas.

but as i zoom thru the future months, i know there will be a lot of decision making to come.

and trust me, i hate decision making. peel me off bit by bit, i am not born a decision maker.

but often times, i realised the importance of decision making, and not just that, accurate and non-biased decision making.

i nv really played with the idea of going away to study for quite some time. and now as i m in my final yr here, this idea seems to be calling me back.

i welcome that idea. and i am giving this idea more attention now.

and i know how much repurcussions it will bring if i really turn this idea to reality. good and bad ones.

its not just about me alone; there are many people, many areas, many things which i have to pass thru my brain, heart and mind for "clearance".

one thing for sure, it affects the way i go in terms of my ministry. and one thing for sure, i must know that my folks are ready for it.

and got to chat with mum about it that night. and sounded pretty supportive.

but of course, as sis advised, i better then demonstrate in actions besides speech that i am serious about each and every of my decisions, and that i know what i am doing.

i better start earning my keeps. which my sis and i all know, is not sufficient if i start now anyway. hahas.

but i fully agree with sis. and seldom i do. hahahas!

that its often the thought and action that counts, to my folks at least. the physical action of demonstrating that you are doing something about it is enough. the product (i.e the amount of money earned) doesnt matter.

i know whatever the outcome may be, He wants the best for me, my family, my friends, and my fellow servants in Christ.

and to where i may be fully used by Him.

we'll see where i may go.

imagine with me, what i may be doing in where i may be in one year's time. (:

time to dream. nights world. (;

i totally adore this website that sis has recommended me.

pandora.com.

i m so thankful for having the free flow of songs that accompany me thru the night as i do my work.

so random, so shuffled. and they play your preferred genre of songs without playing the songs of the artiste that you typed in.

i love the corrs. and the genre that pandora found for me was extremely pleasing to the ears. (:

like wow. hahas.

and made me revisit a few songs that i used to listen so much to, but lost touch of em.

listening to A New Day has Come-Celine Dion.

and best part? there's praise and worship too. (:

and i have since concluded: i love pandora, cos i never know what's next.

cheap thrill? maybe. hahas. but i love random.

like now. random entry. k back to work. sensory integrative approach.....

just did up a short write up for a YouthDNA mini proj.

coolios. something is coming. yeah. expect and anticipate! (:

and guess what, its 3.35am. and i am so fully wide awake.

know why? cos the very brainless mx went off to snooze the moment i step into the house at 6.35pm in the evening cos i was almost dying of fatigue.

and the very same brainless mx DID NOT set an alarm due to, malfunctioning of the brain and inability to plan?

and so, result?

woke up at a wonderful time of 11.15pm.

claps.

this is really not good. my body shouldnt be taking the responsibility of these poor timing.

so understand why i m still up?

k. off to do my play+school research. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

really. its a mixed feeling abt school work. grrr.

once again, a week's over. a brand new one starting within hours.

time flies. before my very eyes.

and its a week to my break week. i dont know if its break week, or our break-down week. hahas. much work. fast time.

but nevertheless, i think i m embracing it, and trying to see them thru His eyes. (:

if i m put thru it, i know i can pull thru it. i trust Him to hold the world for me.

of cos, i am forever thankful for the many events that happen in each and every day of my life! good or bad, i know they happen for a reason and purpose, always. (;

mon- had choir prac instead of usual tues. i always look forward to 'em. cos worship always refreshes me. and made a new friend, Haah (i dont know how to spell! but it's pronounce as 'Hi' hahas. ) i love her presence. she's a vietnamese in adults ministry. She got this super duper smiley face that warms me each time i see her. looking tough on the outside but gentle in spirit, and in voice too. (:

tues- met hannah! refreshed time of sharing and learning.

wed- yuhan n me @ essentialbrews. the plc was really packed. a bit of disappointment actually as i wanted a quiet and nice chill-out place for us. hahas. but though it was really busy, its the company that matters. (:

somethings also occurred to shaun. n i m really thankful for shareen's big heart for her bro. and also, i m reallly thankful to our Daddy for watching over him, always.

thurs- cg. had the cg to do an activity! hahas. o wells. think they nearly tore one another's hair out.

fri- stay-over at shera's hall w utan! woohoo! had prataaa, late night walks, and some nice chats at night. thanks shera. my bud for life. thanks utan. let's live it out tog. (:

sat- it marks the 13th consecutive day that my group has met for FYP. hahahahas. as much as i dread hearing "FYP" now, i am learning how to embrace this thingyy which i know i can never run away from. like what HB said, one's perserverance can be determined by how u pull thru ur research project, cos its a long and ardous journey.

ps jeff's sermon was apt as well. his sharing always speaks to the heart.

and today. was planning to return home str aft DMM. upon reaching tpy central, i just felt like taking the other direction instead. and walked to tpy stadium- a plc i hav not really stepped into for really long.

and i m so glad i took this move. walked up to the highest step and found a nice comfortable spot and just sat there.

i cant help but am really appreciative of the time there! (: i felt as though i was having a field trip out with Him.

i saw a particular family having fun tog. a mum was playing poison ball with her 2 young daughters. and all the laughter and chuckles made me laughed too.

and the 2 little sisters competed with each other and climbed all the way up to where i was sitting. and i can't help but gave em 2 a broad broad grin. arhhhh. really a child-like grin. (:

and i saw 2 old men jogging. and jogging. and jogging. non-stop. my, their stamina. their endurance. their sweat-it-out spirit.

i love the stadium in the evening. what a wonderful spot to just sit, feel the breeze, plug in worhship, read a good book, look at others, and journal ur thoughts.

away from the "to-do-list".

was reading tuesdays with morrie. ironically, my first time reading it. i have been seeing it on the bestseller's list for the past few yrs, but i nv read it.

and now, thanks to xinyi, i have had this opportunity to read it. (:

and it spoke to me, about my life, about my loved ones, about people around me, about my walk with Him.

"...sometimes, you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people to trust you, you must feel that you can trust them too-even when you're in the dark. even when you are falling..."- tuesdays with morrie.

i can't help but gave thanks for those who believed in me. who love me. even in times when i am in the dark, even when i fell, and not just the bright and sunny times. and not just the times when i stood well and healthy.

thanks for giving me such Christ-like love and belief. you guys made a difference in my life. (:

and i fully agree with morrie, that when people place their trust in you, you can feel it. you feel it in your fingers. you feel it in your toes. you feel it in your heart.

or rather, you know it as well. (: i want to be like that.

and shaun's affirmation confirmed that being someone who believes in others is the right thing to do. (: and i will continue to work on that.

sincerity moves. speaking from the bottom of the heart moves. and of course, listening to Him and speaking from the Word moves even more.

shaun shared about luke 6:41. and am comforted after hearing what God spoke to him about this verse.

it made me reflect about certain areas in my life as well.

once u judge someone, u cant possibly love that someone. no way. that's no love.

it really dawned upon me, and made sense to me of the verse in Corinthians, that love is patient and is kind..

does not envy, does not boast and it is not at all proud.

never rude, never self-seeking.

not easily angered, and importantly, keeps no record of wrongs

Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices in truth.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perserveres.

sometimes, all you need in life, is just having Him by your side, showering you His Perfect Love.

it's all about Love.

and like what morrie wrote about himself and his best friend Maurie Stein. now Stein was going deaf. and soon Morrie is going to lose his speech to his illness. with one unable to hear, another unable to speak, what would that be like?

"We will hold hands,"Morrie said. "And there'll be a lot of love passing between us..you don't need speech or hearing to feel that."

Jesus, hold my hand.

okiee dokies. NYP4! Finally...the Long Awaited MOMENT...[as u all try to prove the cacto-phobia girl wrong...hahahahhas!] *drumrolls*

1. Water
2. Large Sheet of Polythene
3.A selection of spare clothing
4. Salt Tablets
5. Chocolate
6. Air Maps
7. Small mirror
8. Knife
9. 1st Aid Kit
10. Loaded pistol
11. Cigarette lighter
12. Newspaper
13. Compass
and....
14. TORCH WITH BATTERIES.

sorry hannah. I CAN'T HELP IT BUT TO BOLD IT!! hahahahhaha!

for those who dunno what's happening, more updates later. (:

was really hungry. so cooked a bowl of noodles. at this hr.

was casually talking to jiahui on train today, and we really concluded how fast time ticks. its august already.

in a blink of an eye, i m already in my final yr in occ therapy over at nyp. everything seems just like yesterday.

i can even remember what i wore on first day of school lo.

so many things that i want to jot down here, yet, at the same time, i feel the raunching of the brain without any logical sentences forming within. (:

met up the fyp peeps today! and quoting xy: meeting one another for SEVEN DAYS a week is disgusting la! hahahhas!

but so glad that we finished before time today! (:

and derek flew back to US today. and that really confirmed how fast time flies. am touched by his testimony of how he grew on in the group over at LA.

and had a gd time reading ps jeff's blog.

i dont know where i will go.

but, i know He will be with me wherever He puts me to go.

a pic when derek first left for US. byee bro.


and heres where junting and sharon left for aust last yr. and AGAIN, i have to reiterate how fast time flies...and now... WELCOME BACK! (:
welcome home sharon!

and juntinggg. (:

ruuui's blog makes me feeel all ready for national day. (:

i really lovee the song that's playing on her bloggg. v heartwarming.

why why why. why has time diluted the "heartwarmingness" of the representating songs over the years..

i think its the simple lyrics like that, that makes u all so fuzzy and puts a smile on ur face la. (:

"you make me feel, warm and safe,
to give me hope for brighter day.....

its the little things, that we share,
the love and joy that's in the air,
the children's laughter everywhere,
and all our favourite things...."

(:

the past week had been a time where i start to think abt many things. things and people ard me, my own spiritual walk, vision..and more on.

was sharing to hannah about some of my thoughts. many times, i may walk thru the whole week, not realising some events were really interesting, some events were really learning sessions, some not-so-good events, some wow-its-great events, and some i-really-want-to-thank-you-so-much-God events...

and sometimes, due to the hurried lifestyle, i just walk thru them, and only come to realise the meaning in each and every of the event on Saturday mornings, where i often have time to sit down, eat my brek, and just put aside those daunting deadlines for a while and spend some time with "myself". hahas.

of course, there are times of regrets. and what alan tea shared today was really apt. don't you wish you could turn back the clock, sometimes?

i do.

but at the same time, i know the clock will be left better to move forward. and it really made me feel so loved by Him to know that He wipes away my past.

wiping yesterday, wiping today, wiping tmr in process.

not an excuse to do wrong. but an opportunity to start with a redeemed spirit.

i like the analogy goes. no matter how hard we try to delete information from hard-disks, fragments of it are always possible to be traced back.

but God is generous, He doesnt delete. He gives you a new hard-drive.

i showed hannah this kok kok scrapbook that i bought at popular for 55cents. it contains my random scribblings of whatever is in my brain, anytime, anywhere.

i really don't want to forget thoughts that ran thru my mind before. gd ones, bad ones. whichever one. so as long there's a learning principle behind each in my spiritual walk. i want to catch them before they fly away.

one entry was written on the bus. and handwriting was horrendously horrendous. hahas.

nevertheless, its the thoughts that matters, not the beauty of it. that explains why i bought the 55cent book too.

i hope i can update that kok kok book for long. i m pretty determined.

unusually, in the midst of the hurried lifestyle that i have for the past week, i feel that He is really close.

and i really treasure these times where i am totally immersed in His strength, cos i m so sure its not my own.

i have been thinking about my next yr. so much..so much.

its about time to plan out my journey on.

God, come in. Show me.

wherever and whatever and however it is, i just want to remember:

i will go to where Your voice is,

"and no matter where i'll be, it warms my heart,
to know that You are always here,
for me.."

its the birthday season in the airrrrr!

in a short span of 2 days, invitations were given for 3 parties in this month of august! all 21st. hahahhas. wellwell.

shareen's bro is having his this sat. haha was so comical. shareen called, shaun spoke and said he is the representative for speaking, to invite me for sebestian's birthday. is like whole family business for sebes's 21st! cool that the whole family is involved! (: and sebes has promised to come to church after his taiwan training stint. greaaaaaaaaat!

and glad to hear that shaun's getting fine in youth as well. (: and of cos, shar too!

totally enjoyed the hike with her last sun. though some hiccups here and there, but was a beautiful walk from mc ritchie to bt timah.

past week was a lil crazy. i dun rem quality sleep. nonetheless, i really feel that i always have energy to move on in the day! thank GOD that He sustains me. I can do all things thru Him who gives me strength.

was reading some article and came by this quote. i thought it was really beautiful. here it:

"The trouble with nearly everybody who prays is that he says 'Amen' and runs away before God has a chance to reply. Listening to God is far more important than giving Him your ideas." :- Frank Laubach, Christina Evangelical Missionary (1884-1970)

and yes thanks utan for the really refreshing chat that night! let's move towards to the ending point tog!

loaded the songs that we r going to sing for anniversary into my mp3.

and listened on to the songs.

and as i got on to the song "How great is our God", really couldnt hold it. it just crept out of my eyes.

and i really felt my heart, soul and mind being merged into one, captured. a lot of things just came to my mind, and i cant help but to really adore Him.

so overwhelmed. that i messaged a few people my heart. so overwhelmed, that i surrendered myself to Him in worship. so overwhelmed, that i went on to intercede for some of my closest.

i felt so set free. and so assured. so confident.

Believe that when all else fails, GOD proves faithful. n seriously, what keeps me moving, is Him. and all of you guys.

as i strive on, i am always so moved, when i am reminded that i really really do have a great grp of peeps who love me through His love, invested greatly in me, people who are stubborn for Him, so much so that they will never let me go; to see that I stay on in this race to do more for Him, wherever we may be.

Thank you all. i really love all of you. so much. cos i have really experienced Christ's love through each and every of your lives.

i had no idea why i wanted to go and eat dinner with you utan, despite it being a short half hr like u said. but m glad i did.

i had no idea why i just had the urge to stop at city hall station, where i had not much of reason to. i didnt even know why. was late. shops were going to close. but somehow, strangely, i just thought i should stop to get some pressies for a few ppl.

but i now know why i alighted. jean called me excitedly soon after. (: she saw junting and sharon with the ex usm brothers that they both used to lead.

i m so sure it can't be coincidence. and its not impt if it is or not. (: i m just thankful for this divine meet-up.

juns and shars shared their experiences and their ministry over at australia for the past yr in Hope Sydney. and shars the OT is going to start work soon at Alexandra Hospital, while juns the RT is going to serve her bond as well at NUH. so happy for them. (:

also, caught up with the rest of the usm peeps. many of them are starting sch soon. bo's going nus; xuan, enghow, hongyao should be starting nx wk at ntu; poor jo is alone in smoooo; with derek flying back to US soon in aug. and like how xuan aptly puts it, a time together like this often reflects how far and how long we have moved tog.

i totally agree. (:

to you all: thanks. yawl made a huge difference in my life. (:

listening: You are Holy
"...I'll sing your praises forever
Deeper in love with You
Here in Your courts
Where I'm close to Your throne
I found where I belong...."

was just discussing abt this casually with my sis

and i just checked my mail and saw leslie's mail. guess it summarizes what we said. (:

Subject: The husband store
Date: Wed, 22 Mar 2006 00:41:50 +0800>>>>>>>>>>>>

A store that sells husbands has just opened in New York City, where a woman may go to choose a husband. Among the instructions at the entrance is a description of how the store operates. You may>>>>>>visit the store ONLY ONCE !

There are six floors and the attributes of the men increase as the shopper ascends the flights. There is, however, a catch . . .. you may choose any man from a particular floor, or you may choose to go up a floor, but you cannot go back down except to exit the building! So, a woman goes to the Husband Store to find a husband . .

On the first floor the sign on the door reads: Floor 1 - These men have jobs and love the Lord.

The second floor sign reads: Floor 2 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, and love kids.

The third floor sign reads: Floor 3 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, and are extremely good looking. "Wow," she thinks, but feels compelled to keep going.

She goes to the fourth floor and sign reads: Floor 4 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, are drop- dead good looking and help with the housework. "Oh, mercy me!"she exclaims, "I can hardly stand it!"

Still, she goes to the fifth floor and sign reads: Floor 5 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love>>>>>>kids, are drop- dead gorgeous, help with the housework, and have a strong romantic streak. She is so tempted to stay, but she goes to the sixth floor and the sign reads:

Floor 6 - You are visitor 4,363,012 to this floor. There are no men on this floor. This floor exists solely as proof that women are impossible to please. Thank you for shopping at the Husband Store.

Watch your step as you exit the building, and have a nice day!

(:

today is such a wayang day. hahas. ask deb. she knows what happened.

i believe no one will ever tread on chua family's toes again. hahahas. haiyooo.

want to know the story. ask me. it was sooooooooo wayang until it sapped all my energy. heh.

but certainly, i thought it was a gd experience. for my sis and me. (:

anyway, i really really enjoyed the choir prac ytd. learnt a lot, sang a lot.

hmm, the stressors of school are kicking in bit by bit. we are all feeling it already. library's like a warzone, so much so i detest going in there now. hahah. except for some blowing of air con. heh.

alrights! sleep go sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep!!!

dearest Priscilla,

blessed birthday.

am ever so thankful that i went over the other time to do survey with u. did not expect that a friendship will blossom after then.

really appreciate ur effort and love in this friendship! :)

miaozhi darl is going for membership class!

and cindy too! :) so happy for her, really. :)

a week of happenings: first week back at school, FYP grp known, decided to go for choir aud and et cetera et cetera et cetera.

to you: great seeing u today. :) stay strong, stay firm, stay courageous for Him. rem, i ll giv u a ride, no matter how many donkey yrs later i take to pass driving if i ever go for it? hahahas!

glad to share my life with u! u r a strong girl. u shall not be defeated.

O. jus remembered a cedar cheer song, that i always enjoyed cheering with my class during jogging sessions in sch last time. dedicated to u! ;)

We are from Cedar, we shall not be moved.
We are from Cedar, we shall not be moved.
Like the trees that are planted by the water side.
We shall not be moved!

as i changed the lyrics:
You are the child of God, you shall not be moved.
You are the child of God, you shall not be moved.
Like the trees that are planted by the water side..
You shall not be moved!

Can call me to sing the cheer for u! hahahas! You will stay strong, stay firm, stay resilient! looking forward to the completion of the race with you.

jiayou woman! jiayou.

have been thinking abt...who am I?

a tough qn. isn't it.

and, today, 21st July, marks the 4th year of my walk with Him. :)

time flies. wow. :)

back to tutor the 3 boys after so long. was expecting a long night, but it turned out that the boys always manage to make my day somehow.

cynthia, the new volunteer who is partnering with me in the tutoring of the 3 boys, made me realise that ernest actually doesnt know his alphabets. and he is already in sec 1 NT.

and arthur told me that actually all along, C, D, E and T sounds the same to him.

so spend the last half hr doing some lip reading. tried the "air" method also by talking to arthur's back of hand to help him get a feel of how the alphabets should be pronounced.

arthur is getting more conscious of himself. he really wants to pronounce each and every single word correctly. probably he is in a hearing environment now, and he is feeling the pressure to speak correctly. and perhaps even interactions with girls as well.

boys his age. tsk.

arthur is considered the lucky one already. the other 2's hearing cant be compared to his, and hence their pronounciation pales in comparison too.

nevertheless, i pray that they will thrive in this hearing environment and fend for themselves. really.

Dear GOD,

I don't know what my days will be like, without You.

I know I am loving You more than yesterday. And i pray, it will continue on for the many tomorrows ahead.

Love, xiu

i know this is really crazy. first day of my year 3 is tmr, or rather, later.

and....

I AM NOT SLEEPING YET. i can't seem to get to sleepp. rolled and turn and finally could not stand it any longer.

i dont know is it the coke light that i drank earlier on taking effect. if it really is, it shall replace kopi in future.

talking abt that, i am trying to cut down on my caff intake. i really need to detox all this rubbish out. so, i have a tiny treatment plan for myself.

i have been adding milo and one teaspoonful of coffee powder for breakfast drink. and not pure kopi. that's step one.

but more often than not, i am tempted to drink coffee for lunch cos i really dont want to risk not being able to concentrate whilst seeing a patient!

hmmm. i m really quite determined not to allow caffeine to take over my life. i can make it without caffeine. amen. haha.

talking about not being able to sleep, i think i know the ans. its not the coke light. i know is just that my head is really full. full to the brim.

so many things in my head. my heart is connected, and is feeling the weight. not the dread-y weight? but, just cant help but feeling a little heavy.

i guess its just that sooo many things have happened, that i dunno where to start, and perhaps, even where to end.

and sometimes, i will just stare in the mirror while i am brushing my teeth and question myself about myself.

sometimes, i m really not sure who i really am. sometimes, i wonder if i am up to the mark. sometimes, i question where i am where i am now. sometimes, i m not really certain if i am really extending the purpose that He has for me for where He has placed me.

u know, sometimes it really scares me. it really grips me to know how fine the walking rope is, in walking towards Him? imagine those acrobats who does all the walking on thin ropes in the high airs. yeah. thats what i meant.

you cannot afford to be negligent. you cannot afford to lose your concentration. you cannot afford to stop, sit on the rope and whine when u feel scared or tired. no you cant, and you shouldnt.

you just walk on! and walk each step with greater faith. walk each step knowing you are for sure, one step closer to the finishing spot. you walk on knowing that you will die once you stop your momentum. and dont ever think of turning back! its crazy and ridiculus.

but its also the very me that i m crying to the Lord not too long ago. why did u put me in such a spot, literally.

why did u allow me to go thru such exhilarating walks.

why did u send me to walk on such 1mm rope.

why did u even choose me.

and i dont know if anyone, someone or everyone can tell, i am actually quite an emo person.

but i have learnt to take captivity of unworthy thoughts as i grew closer to Him for the past yrs.

i am still the old emo mx. but with more self-control as well.

and i hate the feeling of wanting to whine so LOUDLY but yet at the same time, i feel disgusted at myself for whining. hahas.

haiya.

and so I was reminded:

that You put exhilarating walks for me so to expose me. to the vulnerabilities of the environment. to the harshest of the world. and at the same time, to experience the adrenaline of really walking at the edge for You.

You made me walk on tight thin ropes to help me watch and place each and every single of my step CAREFULLY and STEADILY. a careless step, down u go.

You chose me, cos You have prepared me. You have trained me on the grounds to walk on ropes. Now, try something more exciting. challenge the ropes in air. its a privilege.

the journey with the Lord takes my breath away many times u know? literally, figuratively yada yada yada. and i feel soooooooo honoured, really, to be able to serve Him.

though my legs are shivering fr the height, i know i am not going to fall.

i am really quite determined to meet Him on the other side.

and I am ready to strike away the word "quite" quite soon.

yeah. bring it on. :)

shuling sent this. come home running. a father's song to a lost child.

Oh, heart of mine
Why must you stray
From one so fair
You run away
And one more time you have to pay
The heaviness of needless shame

Oh, heart of mine
Come back home
You've been too long
Out on your ownAnd
He's been there all along
Watching for you down the road

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
And he understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

Oh, child of God
So dearly loved
And ransomed by
The Savior's blood
And called by name daughter and son
Wrapped in the robe of righteousnes

Handwriting Analysis
What Your Writing Reveals About You

Mx, your handwriting reveals that you are Sociable

Your writing style reflects that you tend to feel connected to others, and that you help to facilitate that connection through your clear writing. Is it your left margin, your top margin, or your word spacing that gives you away?

feeling weak now. tummy hurts!

i really have no idea how to make the pain go away.

anyway. tmr have to submit the management case. and i have not really integrated the question in my brain.

more work tonight then. hahas.

just checked my mail and saw that hb emailed me 3 days ago. after observations. his short comments and eval of that session. hahas.

ok, one more week to go! woohoooo!

had a long week.

nevertheless, i am really thankful to Him for really being beside me all the time.

many times He stood by me, but i took Him for granted and ranted in my heart how tiring and draining the working life can be. i was not looking forward to working. no no no.

the "real" world. often, people portray a bleak and self-centred image of the world.

its the survivor instinct. the "you-just-need-to-do-what-you-are-supposed-to-do-and-get-off-immediately". no more than that.

just like examinations, we often agree that practicals are rather scary, and theory allows u to be more prepared with what's going to come.

similarly, even though we often have the head knowledge to be in the world and not of the world, to apply in practical? we really need Him to guide us and hold us closely.

so moral of story? : walk close. with HIM. anytime, anywhere.

anyway, presented my case today. had a frantic journey to the hosp this morn due to rain and the unbelievably longggg taxi stand queue. hadnt had time to do script, hadnt had the time to rehearse, and hadnt had the time to even give some animation to my slides.

and was mentally rehearsing in my head how to answer some really possible questions fr the therapists. anyway, every fridays they had some in-service presentations to enhance learning atmosphere within the hospital.

was expecting the medical team to take their leave upon finishing their presentation at 8am today. facing the squad of at least 10 therapists was mental-gruelling enough.

and to my horror of horrors, the medical team stayed put. and today was horrendously lots of ppl. i just felt that my butt then weighed a million tons on the chair.

unwillingly i went up. somehow i was hoping for the laptop to not work. somehow, i was hoping it cant sense my thumbdrive. somehow, i was hoping for everything except for it to work especially.

nv felt similar performance anxiety for a v long time. was mentally stressful to have a view of a roomful of people whose experience adds up to hundreds of years tog.

it sounds ridiculus, but my knees felt weak. throat extremely dry.

i just had to pray. some tranquilisers. prayed for wisdom and coherence in my delivery of case.

took a deeeep breath...and started.

and am glad it went ok! praise Him! i felt an immediate sense of peace and perhaps, increase of conviction of my case as I presented.

and i went on and on and on for 15min, where is the time we offer ourselves to stand in the "firing squad", that is, questions fr floor of case presented.

and glad i pulled thru the experience! i think i learnt a lot from the time of presenting alone. i wouldnt have such courage without knowing He's with me. i felt like an ant telling elephants how to walk a long distance in one stride. you get what i mean?

but nevertheless, its not too bad being an ant. so as long u r a diligent ant. you will get there eventually. and if you are willing to ask, the elephants will give u a ride. :)

hahas. some mini personal reflections. dont worry if you dont get what i am trying to share from my heart. i think i am rambling already.

yay wendy! *pats on our backs* case presentation down! finally!

nights world. i am starting to appreciate the beauty of this clinical attachment. clinical's a terrifying thing, but its opening up my life to lives beyond my own, and i really feel a lot for this profession. i am starting to like geriatrics. its growing bit by bit within me. although sometimes i think i feel embarrased for myself hearing my own broken hokkien.
occupational therapy- towards meaningful living.

taggged by ah ruuui. to do the survey. :)

Instructions: Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head.

1. sis
2. carrie
3. hannah
4. deborah
5. yuhann
6. jeannn
7. shera
8. ziwei
9. regggie
10. ah rui
11. ceyu
12. mingg
13. huimei
14. liyan
15. my pa
16. my ma.
17. shuyi
18. shareeen
19. xuan
20. enghow

Questions:1. How did you meet number 14?
liyannnn! how how how. hahahs. first met her at the touch community theatre for the church student conference. :)

2. What would you do if you had never met Number 1?
prolly i ll have a more peaceful lifeeee. HA. i am just joking alrights. i love her. in good times in bad times. in sickness and in health (coughs violently)

3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
ah how and ah gieee?!? I NEVER THOUGHT OF THAT BEFORE! hahahhas! will be interested to see how it goes! both God-lovers! hahahas.

4. Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
eh. flat no? shuyi and jean?

5. Describe No. 3.
you guys know her isnt it. fun-loving and bubbly sheeepie. she can turn black skies to bluee. :) adore kids and kids adore her.

6. Do you think No.8 is attractive?
look at her! tt's like duhh. hahahhas. great looks great personality, most imptly, great bud. :)

7. Tell me something about No.7
wheeeeee. my dear. jc friend cum bud in church. the girl who brought me to know Him.

8. Do you know anything about no.12's family?
she has a loving husbanddd, and a lovely son timmy!

9. What is no. 18's favorite? God! :) ahhahas. she loves outdoors adventure.

10.What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you? ceyu, pls answer this qn.

11. What language does 15 speak? chinese. teochew. hokkien. malay.

12. Who is 9 going out with? (evil laughter..)

13. How old is 16 now? forever 18... she hopes. 52. :)

14. When was the last time u talked to 13? last weeek.

15. Who's 2's favorite singer? it used to be vic fr f4 if i m not wrong. but she has broken the idolatry already. ahahha!!

16. Would you date number 4? eeeeeeewwwwwww. DEB!

17. Would you date 7? she's my fren. we often date. :)

18. Is 15 single? my pa. what do u think?? :)

19. What's 10's last name? lee foundation like she always say and quote.

20. Would you ever consider being in a relationship with 19? my jie-mei already.

21. What school does 3 go to? missy to be. in nyp. :)

22. Where does 6 live? houganggggg.

23. What's your favorite thing about number 5? a girl with a big heart for others. OTHERS ABOVE SELF.

Dedicated to mx

Dedicated to a goot fren, gr8 sis n lovely pherd>>
Yoooooo MX shepherd. Thx for evrythn today!!!!!! been a long long time since i enjoyed myself so so much. Really. utanLOVESyou :)) -jEan

jean the monkey is watching world cup now at my living room.

and eating honey stars.

and eating honey stars.

and eating honey stars...

and eating more honey stars.....

just a short one.

the past 4 days at clinicals. hmm. i dont know what will be a suitable word to describe it.

but in general, somehow i think it did in one way or another, help me to look forward to finding out more abt working in hospital.

i must admit it is the first clinical placement that keeps me on my toes the entire day.

but certainly i think it will, and i am really certain i can learn loads fr this placement from many people.

like fr my sup. i personally find her an interesting figure. she obviously work hard (verrryyy hard) and plays hard as well. i admire her flexibility, and great sense of responsibility. but of cos, discussing plans with her each day makes my heart beats irregularly. don't try to smoke her. u r asking for it.

another person..

i love dr jung! she's really dynamic. solid woman, yet amicable. she v cute when she smiles. :) her ability to present the infor very relevantly to diff healthcare team members during the round-table session on amputee rehab was something we can learn from.

and i must also say the nurses in the ward are very nice as well. v easy to talk to and to find out about the patient's updates.

hmmm. prayin hard that i will grow to embrace this clinicals. :)

Love Me
By Collin Raye

I read a note my Grandma wrote
Back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat
And he showed it once to me

He said
Boy you might not understand, but a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none
But I loved your Grandma so

We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter
And this is what it said:

Chorus:
If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Until I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love me

I read those words just hours before
my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of a church
Where me and Grandpa stopped to pray

I know I've never seen him cry
In all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her
His eyes filled up with tears

Chorus:
If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Until I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love me

And between now and then
Until I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love me

this song never fails to touch me whenever it comes to my ears. i rem the first time i heard it, it brought some water to my eyes. sometimes i try to picture the grandpa singing it. it really touches me. its like a really sincere song. of the true love they have for each other. :)

and it often brings me to think about God's unfailing love for me, and everyone. i can never seem to understand the extent to which He loves me. and many times, i pray for Him to teach me how to love others through His eyes.

and its true, the love and burden for others deepens when i continually rem them in my prayers. love till it hurts. that's love.

John 3:16. that's love.

its a very stressful thought to think that clinicals will be here in less than 30 hrs time.

its gruelling. i am really nervous about this time round.

my first time posted to hospital. neuro dept. acute cases.

i really don't think i am cut out to work so fast-paced. i am a pretty s--l--o--w paced person.

but whatever it is, face it, prepare my heart, take a deep breath. go for it. am praying for a great learning experience.

time to refresh the stroke stuff, mobility..and what dr param has taught us all. apparently i totally threw them out of my brain long time ago.

scary la! i really scared of clinicals when the sup start to ask ur rationale of ur treatment plan, the patient's progress and all the short term long term goals and everything...

talking about that, i haven done my learning contract! grrr.

i knoe i am waging a war soon. fighting with time, battling with physical tiredness, handling stressors.

and i know, i can proclaim bring it on, when i dwell in Him and walk close enough to Him to experience strength and empowerment for each day.

i will survive. for the next 6 weeks. i know i can do all things thru Him who strengthens me.

friendships

specially dedicated to my growing up buds: the "growing up" in this spiritual family was, is, and will always be memorable. :)

we are still "growing up"!

xuan's choir concert today.

i love the song v much. "Go the distance" by alan menken. i don't know why, not as thou its the first time hearing. but i was very touched by the song. v moved.

and today made me recall, how blessed i am to have all of you as my spiritual brothers and sisters. and those who are not in the pic.

really treasure yawl. really. :)

the poem's not so clear when enlarged. heres it. :)

Cherished Friends

Author Unknown
God must have know there would be times we'd need a word of cheer,

Someone to praise a triumph or brush away a tear.

He must have known we'd need to share the joy of "little things"

In order to appreciate the happiness life brings.

I think He knew our troubled hearts would sometimes throb with pain,

At trials and misfortunes, or goals we can't attain.

He knew we'd need the comfort of an understanding heart

To give us strength and courage to make a fresh, new start.

He knew we'd need companionship, unselfish....lasting....true,

And so God answered the heart's great need with

Cherished Friends....like you.




"9 Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work: 10 If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!
11 Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone?
12 Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken."- Ecclesiastes 4:9-12

essentialbrew

shuyi blessed me recently with a tiny gift. :)

a gift voucher at essentialbrew. v sweet of herrrr! ;)

so decided to go w deb to spend time toggg.

the upstairs like so cosy. even the washrooms were homely. hahas.

i love the place. :)

ok la ok la. i love deb too. hahahas!

she prolly will drop dead seeing this. hahas! she cant stand mushy stuff.

we shared about what drives us.

and just then, i received an sms. from a friend who has not msged me for quite some time.

and there i thought, it really concluded our sharing. the sms goes:

"the quality of your life depends on how you love the things you do, how you do the things you love and how you love the ones who love you."

God demonstrated His love for us, by sending Jesus to the cross.

how do you demonstrate your love? how do you go about doing things that you love? :)

16"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,[a] that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.- John 3:16

steam egggg

mum called at least FIVE times today to make sure my first attempt at steam egggg is finee.

and FIVE times, the contents were roughly the same.

at least i only entertained the last 2. sis got the first three for me. hahahas!

cos ma will be helping my gran to make rice dumplings at gran's stall at night, she offered me an opportunity to attempt making a dinner dish while we heat up the rest that she have made earlier for pa.

u know why she called FIVE times?

cos, during the hols, she gave me an opportunity to cook rice.

i cooked. but it remained quite uncooked.

i ATE it still. i mean, i have to show support to my own work right?

sis spat it. so encouraging.

so next day, cai ma ma offered me another chance. this time round, she reminded me to put in more water.

so, i tried, this time round with really a little bit more water.

and sadly, i failed them again. it's still so RAWWWWWWW! ROARS!

i really put in a bit MORE water. WHAT HAPPENED..

and my sis said, you really put in a BIT more water.

yeah, actually, tt's true, i agree.

ok. i shall go make my steam eggs now. hurhur.

brek at newton

back. from the brek at newton w hannah.

i m so ulu. i didnt know that newton food centre had already started its renovation! hahas.

was walking out of house this morn at 6. its been really loooooooooonnnnnnnggggg since i last smelt early morning dew.

and hear the birds (or rather, crows?).

see the first train in action.

sec school days flash back! ;) oh what a beautifulllll morninggggg!

what a pity! often by the moment i open my eyes, the world is already in a hurry. buses, cars all flying past by me, ppl running for work, construction sites have already started their daily job, stores all opened already.

i think its really nice to wake up and experience mornings. u see a whole set of different things tog. usually age range on the higher end. hahas. what has happened to the younger generation!!

time to learn from them morning pleasures and enjoyment. this is the day that the Lord has made. enjoy it!

fell into the traps of life. open eyes, routine wash ups, breks-- all to prepare for work.

today was different! open eyes (and really took some time to open em up..), wash ups, slow stroll to train station, breks and just spend a great morn with nah eating kaya toast and half-boil egggs. (hmm..more like raw egggs. hahahahs). maiden experience was 8am at ya kun. first customers. hahas. not bad. nows 6.30..

and i think i cant go any earlier than tt. hahas. ultimate already.

slurrrps slurrrps. God has made us to enjoy life, and not endure it. Stop, wait, look. don't rush thru'. enjoy it. :)

morning pleasuresss. ;)

mhi

desperate housewives on a 5-hr marathon. so u can imagine..its popularity.

not really concentrating on the show tho', but watching here and there, as u know, my usual habit of turning on the tv while doing other stuff. i work with a lil noise.

i must admit, desperate housewives's pretty addictive. hahas.

today's friday. back to MHI for tuition as usual. but was really late after rushing down from SAOTSC's AGM. reached at 9 odd. managed to be just in time for their half-yearly birthday celebrations for the kids and tutors. :)

i always look forward to meeting these kids and all. and tt's why i m still with em after 2yrs. i love their simplicity in life. and how they really treasure ppl around 'em.

so, to the 3 boys, juncong, arthur n ernest. thank u :)

and despite my the-cannot-really-make-it-but-roughly-they-understand-sign-lang, i'm glad we managed to walked thru the past 2 yrs!

and now the boys have grown up! and i m always thankful for how God has blessed the 3 of em tremendously to go to mainstream this yr! :)

in this community, i've had an opportunity to praise and worship Jesus without voice, but with Hands. in this community, i've witness how to speak to him, not with voice, but using our hearts. in this community, i've learnt how to listen to His soft and gentle voice, not with ears (and definitely not), but with our souls and inner beings.

and in this community, i ve seen how God's faithful hand was upon many of the children, how the good Lord poured in tremendous blessings into their lives. :)

and it was also in this community, that i got to realise my cousin was serving actively in a church! and that he is serving as an sign-language interpretor in church, for praise and worship! i was really blessed when i learnt about that you know!

and it was also through this opportunity to teach the kids, that i got to communicate with my uncle much more effectively. i enjoyed "chatting" with him, and i know he enjoyed me visiting him nowadays too! ahahhahahs! he will be so eager in imparting his sign language to me.

this is something that i am, and will always, really be thankful about.

that people like my uncle, juncong and some of them, gets to "hear" the gospel.

they, likewise need God. and honestly, how beautiful are the feet of those who brought them the Good News! who shared with them beyond their disabilities.

and it's always so so encouraging to see them praising the Lord on how good He is to them. they love to seek God's face, and often, count their blessings. :)

heart's been heavy for the past 2 days. i really need to overcome some areas in my life.
and i really need Him with me.

some news were disappointing. disappointed in myself, disappointed with friends. disappointment.

but nevertheless, He is always grab my heart tight and wring it really hard in these kind of times. To make me be more aware of His presence and His abilities to change my heart. to squeeze out the stale blood and pump in new one.

alrightys. should rest now. hannah's going HopeKIDs Camp at JB tmr! meeting her for brek at 6.30am..

as usual, its madness. but i enjoy doing such things to her! hahahhahahahs! anw she's got to report at 7.45am anws. :) and well, often, i always end off by sending her a msg- "pls give me morn call!" hahahhahahas! i m not a morning person!

let's pray for a great camp for the Kids at JB! ;)

Team Hippiee won the amazing raceeeeee!!! YAYYYYY!

alright. actually is not new news. sis told me that ytd. but watching it myself was like pow-wow. yeah. i love this team! i was so touched that i teared when they touched down at the pit-stop. hahas. yeah. i m so touched by the integrity that they held, their gentleness amidst energy, kindness amidst racing, sacrificial hearts despite not having much, and the friendship that they share THROUGHOUT this race. how beautiful is that!

"When Phil presented BJ and Tyler with their checks, he said they "really embraced this race. They enjoyed every single moment they were on this race, whether they were in first or in last. They kept their spirit all the way to the end. ...."http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2006/05/18/earlyshow/series/amazingrace/main1628216.shtml

Yeah. that's the word. they embraced this race. winning was a bonus, the ultimate aim was to experience, and finally finish the race.

it was the most beautiful amazing race that i have ever caught thus far. it really demonstrated that to win, pure shrewdness and dirty tricks cant last.

integrity and sincerity towards people do. and that's what i see in bj and tyler.

absolute sincerity in approaching EVERY single one that they meet in every country. they did not narrow their aim to just finishing the race and grab tt 1 mill.

they were much more interested in giving energy to the person that manage to cross paths with em. :)

"Co-winner BJ noted, "I think that on this Race being cerebral doesn't help as much as being in the moment. It's just great to stay positive and really enjoy each other's company. Our friendship is what got us through it." Tyler added, "BJ and I approached each country with wide eyes and enthusiasm and a huge spirit of adventure. There's so much in this world. We might as well take advantage of as much as we can and give back as much as we can and that's important. That's how it all works." "
http://www.cbs.com/primetime/amazing_race9/shows/ep13/race/story/?id=6

i always hoped that i was in the race as well, to see how it has become their second skin to just make another person's day. wow.

finally. the certs are done.

so confused now. full of words in my brain and in front of my eyes now..

zipped.

sent.

cross fingers. *cross cross cross*

no amendments plsss! hahahahhahs. i cannot make it le.

i am really seeing stars now. really.

staring at the screen for the past few hours is no joke. and i really think i am getting carpal tunnel syndrom soon.

wahhhhhhh. concussed!

and is to be out of hse in 4 hrs time. great.

was still planning to jot down how wonderful the night was.

obviously i m going to faint if i dont sleep now. haaa..

sleep sleep sleep.

gd nights world.

can't sleep.

thinking thru some stuff. and somehow i felt a little stuck.

prompted to pray in the spirit. Lord, u still know my heart the best.

and yeah, haha, i cant help but shake my head as i look at the table now. tsk. at nights like this nowadays, like now..i realise it's natural to have these stuff laying around the coffee table in the living room in a few secs..hahas:

tv (reflected) on for sound. milk in hope that i ll sleep. nutella on biscuits to fill my hunger. books and mags, in hope that words can induce me to sleep. and going online to check mails. obsessive-compulsive disorder nowadays.






or, i ll just sit by the window and stare out. the empty roads. the mobil bustling with voices. the view gives me some "stillness", some time alone to think and pray. therapeutic. though not a beautiful scene, but i like the empty roads feel. v still. and the long straight stretch feel.
















and hahas. jus thought of something. compare the above with the following tt i took some time ago..

notice a diff in something?

hahas. this totally reminds me of the "spot the diff" game. hmmm...








DVC's out today.

and i really agree with what alan tea shared on mon. it's presenting itself as a soft opposition, a little challenge posed to our faith.

however, i like the way he put it, with the verse in Ecclesiastes 1:9, "What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun.". So DVC shouldnt catch us by surprise.

instead, we should make the most of every opportunity(Eph 5:16)..to share the facts amidst the lies.

the seminar on monday was mind-opening. it really helped me to think deeper and to see DVC beyond a movie itself. it's a legendary production..and it's so powerful that its going to be etched in ppl's minds, and be one of the most talked-about topics among ppl.

to quote the conclusion of the seminar:"This novel (DVC) is entertaining but it is not history. Genuine history requires proof. The author has taken a set of ideas and speculative historical reconstructions, each of which is highly implausible in itself (Holy Grail, Goddess in the Gospels), and by weaving them together has not only created an exciting plot but has made several implausible elements appear for a moment as though they might be true. The pseudo-historical claims of a modern novel can't make truth false.

GK Chesterton reminded us that orthodoxy is not only true; it is infinitely more interesting than heresy. The book will soon fall from the best-seller lists. It is now eleventh place in the New York TImes hardcover fiction list. Our faith will continue..."

lincoln brewster

i really love this song.

the praise song we sang today.

it really uplifts me. really encourages me. and i cant stop smiling when i hum it.

its really the feeling of falling in love with someone.

in bliss, in an atmosphere of total love.

i am falling in love with YOU! yes YOU! :)

...by lincoln brewster..

"..i will love the Lord
with all my heart
with all my soul
with all my mind
with all my strength......" :)

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recollections.

sense of nostalgia.

or if nostalgia too sad, or negative a word..what about..calling them memories? :)

i was just looking through some old photos. and i really love the times i've had so far.

from how i started my schooling life in living water christian church as a K1 student, where i rem hilarious moments like the way i wrote the chinese word "qing wa" (frog)...hmm.. hahas.

to kheng cheng..i love my pri school times. really. it was a place where i grew, i made great friendships. a whole environment of learning in fun, joy and laughter. nurturing teachers, great friends..great buds. a teacher i will always remember and miss. yang lao shi! he is an important figure in my life. i dont think many people know that, but this dear old guy is fantastic. he taught me so much. his passion for art sparked off passion within me too. he created lots of opportunities for me to learn and grow in the area of art and chinese calli. i suppose, this tiny, and seemingly unimportant areas of my primary school life really built the foundation of positive self concept within me. its really an important seed, to have people believing in you. :)

and cedar! i adore cedar. i love the people. i love the teachers. i love the energy. i love the cheers!. i love the canteen's ru dan (egg). i love the around-school-jogs before recess time. i love training times. i love the stay-in-classroom-during-recess-time-and-try-to-eat-your-lunch-though-its-rule-breaking time. i love the long walk out from school down cedar ave to bus stop. endless. endless list to the loves.

of cos, it was a time when i was growing up..when i suppose i was quite a brat. when i was immature. a time where i made many silly decisions. :)

but it was also a place which nurtured an identity within me. a place where they instill confidence within you. they empower you. it's dynamic. and i'm really glad to be part of the cedarian fam.

then to aj. ah-ha. that's the place where learning became a bit of dread. can't blame. it's a pre-tertiary stage already. i remember being irritated at all those who preached to me that jc will be so many times better than sec sch. *stares. hahahas.

of cos, there were still things to bring back. great people, great class that i've had. the funny silly things the class did. mr yip's physics class. HAHAS! rem some of them were punished by having to have their desks facing the walls during class. jokers.

and strangely, it was the place and stop in my life where i came to know God. i really cant help but think it must..IT MUST be God's plan. you don't know how much i was banging to go to sajc before going aj. ask reg for the reasons. hahhas.

i never imagine myself coming to know God in this land. really. i planned to go sajc.. with one reason being to know more about Christianity, to experience the Christian fellowship, to find out more, to gain exposure to spirituality.

but no, i dont know what came over me. i decided to pull out and put aj instead. despite the many reasons why i should, i want, i desire to go sajc.

but there are many things which don't need a reason, isnt it? it just happens. :)

and i've never looked back since. this journey with God is so real and dear to me.. and having Him in my life made me move forward in life with a different kind of confidence.

and i reckon that's Faith. not a future that's based on tangibility...things like studies, leadership roles and everything. it's..hmm. just a drive, a focus that i know i never had before i knew Christ.

it's been amazing. the past 3 years were something i never forsee in my life when i was looking 20 years down the road when i was in my sec sch days. it was COMPLETELY off my plan. i never imagine life to take a turn in this direction at this lifestage. never. never. and never.

of cos, His ways are higher than my ways. and He knows what's the best for me.. and His plans are in place for me already.

everything in His time.. :)

the five love languages.

was pretty surprised at this quiz. it turned out to be i had to imagine i have a partner and stuff. but i really agree with the analysis. the top 3 are what i have expected before i do the test. :) quality time, service, physical touch. hahahs!! Disclaimer: I still LOVE GIFTS! Keep coming! HAHAHA!

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		11
Acts of Service:		7
Physical Touch:		7
Words of Affirmation:		3
Receiving Gifts:		2

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

it's a small world afterall..its a small..small..world. fullstop.

sometimes you really got to admit that the world is VERY SMALL.

or rather, Sing is small.

i was looking through the photos on friendster..and i saw Joanna in Genecia's arms!

okok.. disclaimer. Joanna, as in greeny jo.

and Genecia's her immediate cousin!

what can i say.

it's a small world afterall..it's a small.small world. :)

visited eilton at where he was working the other day with the caregroup. hahas. he's working in the super duper old lifebookshop at forum. thought we should pop by and add some 'life' there. :)

he played this dvd for us to watch. titled 'face-down'. and frankly, i forgot about this until this afternoon, this word rung in my head again.

it was based on Leviticus 9:24. "Fire came out from the presence of the LORD and consumed the burnt offering and the fat portions on the altar. And when all the people saw it, they shouted for joy and fell facedown..."

a demonstration of humility, a simple demonstration of reverence, for Him..

Have i fell facedown, in honouring reverence and humility for Him, today?

and if i see Jesus today, will i honour Him with this simple demonstration of reverence?

Have we customised God? Have we diluted the essence of God honouring attitudes as we desire to be relevant to the world?

Honestly, i know i am guilty of that.

Lord, change my heart.. renew my spirit. teach me dear Lord, to impart and impact my team with Your vision, help me to grow and mature in disciple making.

Lord, help me to recall the essence of "follower-ship", in the midst of leadership.

facedown. 0mm from knees to ground.

"We will crown You, King forever, Living Saviour, Jesus Redeemer...."

well, mr lenny just set up a blog. hahas. amazing.

and decided to pop by and hey, was really encouraged by the posts proclaiming his love for Him.

and amazingly, i started to blog hop a bit and went onto this person's link. hmm well. i dunno him personally, but i know he's the president of the Student Council during my JC days. hahas.

saw one of his recent blog post on holy spirit baptism. and hey, we were discussing this extensively during our DMM last night. we went through the whole teaching and was reading through the materials on who the holy spirit is, the manifestations of the spirit, so on and so forth.

and great! i've got another insight of another person from another church. perhaps the sharing will provide a fuller understanding. :)

and so....i kinda ripped this off fr his entry. i think he wouldnt mind eh? hahahas i mean its gd stuff! here goes the post..

"Mark 16:17 ... They will speak in new tongues..
WakIng up to a great sunday morning, as i prayed to God for some answers in tongues.. i decided to find out more...

Mark 16:17 And these signs will follow those who believe: in my name they will cast out demons, they will speak with new tongues;

in this context Jesus has risen from the dead, His perfect work have ben finished on the cross n' the Lord has risen him. Surely, from this point, its the New covenent.

Casting out demons, speakng intongues and healing all appear n other passages in e NT, and there is no scriptural warrant for their cessation before the Lord returns.

New tongues refers to supernaturally speaking a human language,

unknown to the speaker (Acts 2:1-13)or in a transrational language of heaven (1 Cor 13:1) Though i speak with the tongues of men and of angels..

1 Cor 13 then goes on tokking about LOve, How God's uncondiional love permeate your attitude, motives, thoughts, words and actions. It is this Love that authenticates spititual gifts..

erhz, cant finish, shall resume later...
take-aways:- no scriptural warrants for the cessation of speaking in tongues before He returns- Love of Lord that authenticate the speaking in tongues

Sunday, April 23, 2006

1Cor 12:30 .. Do all speak with tongues? ..
Cont'd

Not all will manifest the gift of tongues in public worship. Yet, in private devotion everyone is encouraged to express themselves thru their spiritual language

1 Cor 14:5 i wish you all spoke with tongues, but even more that you prophesied;prophesied means to talk in language that ppl understand, why did Paul say "even more"? coz w/o interpretation, it is not edifying the church, n' hence he endorsed prophecy over tongues in this context

bt nevertheless, for personal 'use', one should speak in tongues. because..
1) e speaker may not know what he or she is saying, but they can be sure to whom they are speaking
2) we express praise while doing so (Acts 2:11 Cretes and Arabians, we do hear them speak in our tongues the wonderful works of God.)
3) we pray using the Understanding of God and not our own limited understanding (1cor 14.15 What is it then? I will pray with the spirit, and I will pray with the understanding also: I will sing with the spirit, and I will sing with the understanding also.)

hEEz, tt's why i like to pray in tongues~! how many agree that its wonderful not having to know what you would need to pray for but pray in the spirit so that all that is needed will be provided n' added unto you! =)

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some food for thought. n praying wont be caught by him for plagarizing hahahas!

wheee! received this fr liyan! hahas!

http://www.MingXiu.youaremighty.com/

it's like so cooollll.

going down to nuh to meet shep later! hahha a journey to the west literally.

i really got to kow-tow to all the leaders who are living at the edge of singapore. imagine the kind of dist they make to meet up ppl living in the central and stuff. sacrifice. really going all the way out to do His work.

and oh.. saw this in an outdated 8 days mag. haha happen to be re-browsing and saw this webbbie.. www.thesaltandpeppershakermuseum.com. haha. i m pretty amazed how salt and pepper shakers are considered artefacts that can be displayed for exhibition. hahas. interesting.

as i look back upon my week, it was terrible. or terrible is too light a word to express my heart and degree of the "terrible-ness"?

terror-terri-horror-horri-ble. yeah. that kind. hahas.

in fact, i really thought i was clinically depressed. all symptoms fufilled. hahas.

but as i think back again, i give thanks for the rough times. it really challenge my limits. challenge my character. challenge my threshold of things around me. challenge my faith. challenge my security. challenge my trust. challenge my almost everything.

sometimes i wonder what lies ahead. and whenever i think of this, corrine may's song jus come into my mind. "Everything in His time". And the lyrics, "there are a thousand reasons why i should give up, but i'm stubborn in the things i believe....."

"I'm telling you, the answer will come, Hold on to patience and watch for the sign,..everything in His time.."

when i start to turn my head from stressors to blessings, the difference in my spirit is immeasurable. i start to give thanks. and recall the snippets of blessings. how can i not be moved? my friends, my family, spirtual fam, everyone. how can i not be blessed?

u know whats the problem with me? i am suffering from some short sightedness. spiritually.

i get too focused on the present downs, and find it hard at times to look beyond the future ups.

m really immersed with joy and hope when i jump into thanksgiving. so much to rejoice about.

ytd's prayer meet really stir in me. i walked in, and what i heard was the qn " are you in a battle today?"

honestly, i thought i was. but after much thoughts, maybe where i am now is jus the pre war period. hahahs.

now is the 'donning on armour-putting out shield-drawing out my sword and getting ready to charge across battle field' time.

and what moves me? i know i m not alone. He is already in front.

I just need to get the rest to be ready. beside one another.

one 'ohana!

Alright, due to the over the weeks intense training in quoting authors after the piles of reports, heres one:

"To quote Lilo, in her own eloquent way, she said, 'Ohana means family. Family means no one is left behind - or forgotten.' "

Reference:
Fischer, J. (i dunno the year). Lilo & Stitch and the Spirit of Hawaii:
The message of the film and the meaning of 'ohana [Online]. Available: http://gohawaii.about.com/cs/hawaiifilms/a/lilo_and_stitch_2.htm (2006, April 22)

hehe. bet the referencing is wrong. i seldom reference online stuff. hahahs.

doing my groupwork assignment.

eyes are barely..1mm opened.

typed onto google: intellectually disabled+puppetry cos thats the theme of my groupwork report. designing series of 6 puppetry sessions for intellectually disabled children.

and as i hit 'enter' on the keyboard, what caught my eye was this link..

Hope Church Singapore Community Ministry Year 2003
Bishan Home is a home that provides care for the Intellectually Disabled. During the visitation, the volunteers presented a puppet show, sang carols, ...www.hopesingapore.org.sg/community_2003.htm - 43k - Cached - Similar pages

wow. i am very heartened, to know that the church is reaching out to people with special needs as well.

am inspired to do more. :)

Generation NEXT 06'- Poly/DI Church Camp @ downtown east!

14-17March2006. :)

WOTS400!

a friend smsed me this today:

" For christians, prayer is not an option, but an opportunity. in prayer, expect setbacks, but refuse retreat. Don't tell the LORD how big the problem is, tell the problem how great the LORD is!"

so listen up 'Problems'. u r too small and insignificant to shroud the greatness of our LORD!

i don't really dare to look at the clock now.

but i got to wake up at 6.30 tmr morning. and i have no idea why i am still up. can't sleep.
not as if its my wedding. its my aunt's!

perhaps its the coffee just now. sheesh.

munching cookies baked by jorris.. absolutely scruMpolicious. hahaahahhas!

don't you find the world warp?

why is it that things like the SIT video saga can spread like a plague, without much effort, everyone has seen it, heard about it, understand it.

Why won't their hearts be as open to the Truth, the Living Word?

i think its all about Desire. when u desire for something, u go for it.

told u. Man are hard-to-understand creatures.

praise the LORD!

i really felt like crying just now. seriously. like i can feel the intense fear gripping my heart.

nothing big actually. but i really felt cold all over.

i thought i lost the word document!

and i really stayed up to do..i was half dying staring at the screen. i recall the experience as r.e.p.u.l.s.i.v.e.

and the idea of RE-DOING wasnt exact fantastic. and the deadline for this epractical is like..today?

and in my hopelessness..i jus kept mumbling to God..and kept shaking my thighs and biting my lips..

mx's nervous breakdown symptoms. hahas.

yeah and i can laugh now. cos i found it! thanks Ceyu!!! so IT savvy. a call away!!

Praise the Lord. phew. i promise, i will SAVE, EMAIL and SAVE EVERYWHERE my assignments the next time round.

i have a weak heart.

i know i am a bit lagggg..

but..

i just realised..

corrinne may blogs. hahahas.

www.corrinnemay.blogspot.com. :)

and i am dying from doing the home and comm e practical. my eyes cannot take it already.

but..

do i have a choice?

No.

So?

back to work. enough of corrinnemay.

...............

saw this on xuan's bloggg. JOhari window! i just learnt this in jo's lesson. ;)

come come. friends. do this for me. gam sia. :) hahhahhas.

http://kevan.org/johari?name=-mx

so blessed today!

shareen gave me a box, with cute pics of cows on it!

and deb surprised me with a huge stuffed cow when we went home tog!

Thanks dears!

went for teh tarik with huimei, joella, huishan, deb, hannah and jiahui. after dinner today ;)

was supposed to discuss with huimei abt the upcoming unit CG. and the conversation drifted to about relationships, about life partners..hahaha (tt's how far women can digress, for ur info. ;) )

and inevitably, we started sharing about what kind of character are we looking for in our life partners. and seriously, i think night time breeds openness. hehs.

and as i was walking home just now, i was very reminded of cm's song- mr. beasley.

the song may sound kind of silly, but its so real. and i think the song really brings out the essence of my thoughts as well. hahas.

the essence of "being urself".

was sharing to huimei, that admist the ideal characteristics of my life partner, i am looking for someone who can make me feel that i am being "myself" when with him, and he too, is comfortable for being himself.

dunno why, but this is a v impt factor for me.

so with vday coming up, this's song for ur listening ear. enjoy ;)

M R . B E A S L E Y
Written by Corrinne May Ying Foo
Copyright 1997, Corrmay Gourmet Music (ASCAP)
You don't have to drive a fancy car
Don't have to quote me Shakespeare just to woo me
Yeah I see your nervous laughter when you're trying to crack some joke
Well, you don't fool me
I'd like to see your eyes through those goggles that you're wearing
Don't try to hide away

Just be yourself, Mr. Beasley
I don't need your show of attitude
Coz' it's your soul that makes me fall in love with you

You don't know this but I see you in the church when you are praying,
You just move me
And my friend Sue she tells me you've been teaching kids for free
Mr. Philanthropy
I'd like to see your eyes through those goggles that you're wearing
Don't try to hide away

Just be yourself, Mr. Beasley
I don't need your show of attitude
Coz' it's your soul that makes me fall in love with you
Be yourself, Mr. Beasley
I don't need your show of attitude
Coz' it's your soul that makes me fall in love with you

I'd like to see your eyes through those goggles that you're wearing
Don't try to hide away

sometimes, as i walk along the streets or anywhere, alone, with busy bustle passing me by,

or even as i am squeezing with people back to back on trains.

in lifts with fellow campus mates.

sitting beside a girl of my age on a bus.

walking out of school, with chattering campus mates in front of me. and the list goes on and on....

i wonder,

"who will i be today, if i hadn't known Him?"

i was trying to picture myself, my life priorities, my interest, and how i would spend my time..

haven really had a conclusion as yet.

but one thing i'm definite of as of now, i will never have the willingness to attempt things which tests my comfort zone, which threatens my security if i hadnt known Him. i m very sure of that.

I am very thankful for Him living in me, a living and divine security in which i can build my life upon.

and its simply because of this identity as a child of God, i came to see myself trying things in which i would have stood in fear facing , if i hadnt known Him.

and it doesnt mean that i experience success everytime i take that step of faith and try as well.

but amazingly, u just have the assurance that this is not the end of, but the process of experiencing His presence and power in your life.

gd nights. ;)