the past one week had been an eventful one.. according to mx's dictionary, eventful= full of events. hahahs.

not all r nice ones tho' of cos.

but amidst those 'not-so-nice' ones, i do have great ones too. :)

like my birthday. hahas.

this yr, i ve decided to spend it in a diff manner. postponed all meetups and dinners to nov.

this yr, i decided to spend this time 'starbucks-ing' with God instead. n it was a very very refreshing time for me. n the 2 girls decided to surprise me by visiting me at my hse at night!

i m blessed. :)

great fellowship w the sheep. its a privilege to serve w them. they've made me learnt so much.

thru their actions, i ve learnt what does it mean to let my hair down and serve Him. precisely! it should be no stress! immense joy!

'ANYTIME, ANYWHERE.' talking to yuhan inspired me w this concept. and i jus told myself..'anytime, anywhere.'

He is there for u..'anytime, anywhere.'

You can talk to him..'anytime, anywhere.' no boundaries, no environmental restrictions.

He is not jus found in caregrps, church or just when u r praying.

no. It's not. it's 'Anytime, anywhere.' with the Holy Spirit living in you..and He is greater in you than you in yourself.

reminded me of this song that we sang during svc last sat. composed by this bro in church.. 'GREATER'. He must be greater in me than me in myself..and u will soon realise, all the rest of the stuff that u have been focussing on, is actually v temporal.

got this email fr joanna. spoke to me a lot. to all whom it may speak to too. blessed day. :)


THE BRICK>>
A young and successful executive was traveling down a neighborhood street,
>going a bit too fast in his new Jaguar. He was watching for kids darting
>out from between parked cars and slowed down
>>when he thought he saw something. As his car passed, no children appeared.

>Instead, a brick smashed into the Jag's side door! He slammed on the brakes
>and backed the Jag back to the spot where the brick had been thrown. The
>angry driver then jumped out of the car, grabbed the nearest kid and pushed him up
>against a parked car shouting, "What was that all about and who are you? Just what
the heck are you doing? That's a new car and that brick you threw is going
>to cost a lot of money. Why did you do it?" The young boy was apologetic.

>"Please, mister...please, I'm sorry but I didn't know what else to do," He
>pleaded. "I threw the brick because no one else would stop..." With tears
>dripping down his face and off his chin, the youth pointed to a spot just
>around a parked car. "It's my brother, "he said "He rolled off the curb and
>fell out of his wheelchair and I can't lift him up."
>>Now sobbing, the boy asked the stunned executive, "Would you please help me
him back into his wheelchair? He's hurt and he's too heavy for me."
>>Moved beyond words, the driver tried to swallow the rapidly swelling lump
>in his throat. He hurriedly lifted the handicapped boy back into the
>wheelchair, then took out a linen handkerchief and dabbed at the fresh
>scrapes and cuts. A quick look told him everything was going to be okay.
>"Thank you and may God bless you," the grateful child told the stranger.

>Too shook up for words, the man simply watched the boy push his
>wheelchair-bound brother down the sidewalk toward their home.>>It was a long, slow walk back to the Jaguar. The damage was very
>noticeable, but the driver never bothered to repair the dented side door.

>He kept the dent there to remind him of this message: "Don't go through
>life so fast that someone has to throw a brick at you to get your
>attention!" God whispers in our souls and speaks to our hearts. Sometimes
>when we don't have time to listen, He has to throw a brick at us. It's our
>choice to listen or not.

>>Thought for the Day:>>If God had a refrigerator, your picture would be on it.
>>If He had a wallet, your photo would be in it.
>>He sends you flowers every spring.
>>He sends you a sunrise every morning Face it, friend - He is crazy about >you!
>>God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow,sun without
>rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and
>light for the way.

>>Read this line very slowly and let it sink in...
>>If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
>>


'You must be greater in me o Lord, Let all the rest fade away....my joy is complete in You, for You are my strength, my soul...'- Greater.

reggie has a weirrrddd friend. HAHHAS. :)

wheeee. robert's gone! i m so thankful for tt. the one case study tt can make all ur hair drop overnight.

v thankful for steph!! machiam cheeerleader. called each other halfway here there. woke the other person up if we r napping. woooo.

n v blessed to hav her arrange the reference list for meeeeeeeee n everything!!! thanks woman. muacks!

knew tt i felt super negative the day before. so i jus headed home straight fr sch. i felt tired den..really tired. i just seem to experience a huge sense of..tiredness in my heart.

reached home. n immediately i took the spot of the sofa by the window. looked out and far beyond. spent some time praying cos the feeling was getting harder to bear. .

plug in earphones. listened to e songs on the playlist. continued praying..or maybe..even complaining to God.

tt i feel its really getting tough. where r u Lord? i cant hear u..

n this song played. it stood out from the many songs. it was never a song i paid much attention to in the entire cm's album. but..suddenly, parts of the lyrics made a lot of sense to me.

indeed, there are a thousand, or even a million reasons why i should give up, but i m stubborn in the things i believe. in the ONE reason. n tt's enough to know tt all i m doing is not in vain. :)

nights world.

E V E R Y T H I N G I N I T S T I M E
Written by Corrinne May Ying Foo & Carole Bayer SagerCopyright 2001 Corrmay Gourmet Music (ASCAP) / All About Me Music adm. by Warner Tamerlane Publishing Corp. (BMI)

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and
I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time

as usual. a tiny break from doing robert would be...

reading blogs!

but i nv regret doing tt.

cos i was yawning away and was abt to go to the kitchen to make some coffee.. grab my cadbury cubes to eat...

n i realised: why did i always choose to do the most obvious n visible thing to make myself awake.

yes all these stuff does help. but for only tt little while. coffee..chocs..but i will soon struggle between physical fatigue n mental alertness. realised something..worship is so much better. body n mind renewed.

aft reading shuyi's blog, i felt the sudden urge to sing songs of worship and decided to jus leave everything aside for a moment n pray.

fr shuyi's blog:
"That peace is so precious to me. The cushion of the sea. There is a point in the ocean so deep that it is total stillness down there. Where the waves and currents above have no effect on this deep volume of water. God's peace is like that cushion. Nothing can touch it. Not uneasiness, disappointment, too many things to do, these can't reach it. The peace permeates the soul.

Psalm 68:19-Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior,who daily bears our burdens."

a most refreshing 10 min of break i've had so far. :)
n i jus start to hum this song.. great time in quietness w jesus. ;)

Sing Of Your Great Love

All that is within me Lord will bless Your holy name,
I live my life to wor-ship You alone.
You brought me out of darkness,and in-to Your glorious light
Forever I will sing of Your great love.
Forever I will sing of Your great love.

I love to see You glorified, to see You lifted high,
I yearn to see all na-tions bow their-knee.
It's You alone Lord Jesus who can cause the coldest heart
To find Your love and everlasting peace.
To find Your love and everlasting-peace.

CHORUS:
Ho-ly, Ho-ly, Ho-ly is the-Lord.
Ho-ly, Ho-ly, Ho-ly is the-Lord.

And Your trumpet will sound,
And all of heaven will know
That the time has finally come
For the bride to take her place.
And we'll hear the angels-sing
©1999 Darlene Zschech / Hillsong Music Australia / Integrity's Hosanna!
Words and Music by Darlene Zschech

amen.

inevitably, i whined and complained incessantly in my heart when i realised i made another mistake for bsm prac. i was gripped with horror when i realised HOW careless i can be. i hate the feeling of realising a new mistake everyday u know. roars.

BUT, i was rudely interrupted in my thoughts. but a beneficial interruption i would say. 'focus on whats ahead, not what's behind, look forward, look forward..look forward... "Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead.." Phil 3:13'

hard to imagine..but this gentle reminder of the Holy spirit energized me.. inside out.

i felt v blessed instead. that u know, i was reminded tt i have so many things i could give thanks for. i could hardly finish counting my blessings..so why focus on disappointments?

God plants circumstances in our lives to learn something out of 'em.. nv something tt we cant bear.

led cg today. wonderful time w the girls. testimonies of the girls greatly encouraged me. esp yuhan's. :) u ll be really amazed how God changes a life. ur life inspires me yuhan. :)

i m v thankful for the convenanted relationships tt i hav w this family. really. its a joy to serve the Lord tog w u guys.

let's sweat it all out!!!! rem the 'gym plan' alright! :)

b.r.e.a.k.t.h.r.o.u.g.h: u will only experience it when u start walkingatheedgeforHim. :)

many things happened today.

or rather..a MAJOR thing happened today. bsm prac exam is finally over. i have a NYP stress-level scale within me u knows. if 1 is minimum and 10 is ultimate, i wld rate today as 9.875679409745. u get the drift.

suet was saying she felt butterflies before the prac. yeah. i agree. or even bees.

but all relieved its over. :) thank God for one qn which inthu was mentioning a few min before i left for my slot. it was abt the ankle. i totally forgot abt learning the ankle. too small. hahas.

alright. nuff' said. shall commit the exam into God's hands. tho' i know i made some real stupid mistakes, hv tried my best already.. ROARS. glad hua beng's affect was ZERO in the exam room.

think this is test that tests ur "thick-skinness" also..if u forget how to do something..u jus chiong n do something at least.. and 'act confident' of ur treatment..and just do. no time to waste. no time to whine..no time for regrets. u bascially fly from one station to the other.

...see. here i go again. i jus enuff said. n i went on again. i got to kick the habit of rambling n whining. n stop worrrying. hahas.

some thots impacted me recently. n today, another one i took home when huimei was sharing.

"When u feel tired..and many things r piling up in ur head..Stretch urself."

perhaps it sounds..weird? a natural response of tiredness is often..to rest. but the point she shared abt stretching urself when u r tired hit me to a great extent. i think it all applies to muscles too isnt it? treatments r always about stretching..n we often encourage clients to self-stretch too.

S.t.r.e.t.c.h. and stretch beyond. don't give up. persist in it. :) go further. push! (sounds so sit-and-reach hahahs)

yeah. p.u.s.h, pray until something happens. communicate w jesus everyday. :)

i hv learnt so so much in a saturday.

perhaps fr huabeng's. his last min revision gave our class some confidence i would say. a lecturer tt's all ready to impart..n not jus doing his job or vocation as an educator. nope. he's doing all these..all cos its his..

Passion.

i hope i got tt right. at least i feel so. he is someone who is passionate about nurturing young OTs a.k.a us. i like his ever objective attitude.

n he mentioned about customizing today. tt as generation passes, students have become consumers instead, and tt lecturers r made to 'customise' a service to students.

i ve learnt much fr svc too. n guess wad? svc was about..

"When we Customise GOD".

so apt.

and i was so very impacted by the sermon today. n i supposed many others were too.

it wasnt a all so nice, telling u of God's blessings kind of sermon u know..it sounded rather scary..n it DID instill a God fearing attitude in me.

why so? all because i think i m also guilty of customizing God too in the process as i live my life.

Many times, we want a "God" that is "light" to carry, "user-friendly" and "predictable". in this generation, analogous to what huabeng mentioned, the new generations have being 'conditioned' for immediate gratification.

hence, customization begins.

we fail to wait on God's silence. we often give up too soon. too very soon..

Have i interceded for someone frequently? more than prayers for myself? how can i easily forget the power of intercession!

many testimonies were shared, and my heart was gripped with awe for Him. really. it cant be coincidence. it must be Him.

Pastor Dinah was sharing how this sister was getting out of the house, preparing to go for a unit event.. that was about 6pm in the evening.

as she walked, she felt an intense stirring in her heart..to pray.

and hence, she pray for the obvious, that the unit event will be a success and that it will run smoothly..

but still, the stirring did not go away...it was with her all the way till 10 at night, when the event has already ended.

and so..she walked..and felt a great prompting in her heart to pray for her friends who have went for missions in Lima Peru. this time that she interceded..it was 10pm Singapore time.

she interceded for them like never before..and it was only till she wake up the next morning, did the burden wear off.

n 2 days later. she got an email.

fr this sister, who is in the Peru church planting team.

n it wrote to her, that on Saturday (which was the day she interceded), in the morning at 9 am (peru is 13 hrs behind Singapore time.) , she, together with Julian as the driver and others had a near to death experience.

this particular sister smelled smoke and was shocked to see the car on fire when she turn back. and so she screamed for Julian to stop. and Julian quickly drove to the edge of the dusty little road.

"Get out!!" she screamed. and they hurried down and tried to extinguish the blazing fire with the dust on the roads, together with a few helpful passers-by.

the fire was so huge tt it could only be extinguish when the police and everyone came with the extinguisher.

n aft investigations, Julian n team were told that the car could have exploded should he continue to drive a bit more.

Power of intercession. i no longer believe in coincidences.

instead of us customising God..

allow God to customise you instead.

Yuhan joined us for the very first time today! u know..this sense of excitement is buzzing within me so much? i look forward to serving with her in the ministry..and i know tt God has great plans for her.

had a good time chatting with her..sharing and i was really encouraged by her sweet spirit. open and honest conversations, which i felt strongly. i love conversations like this, when u know tt theres openness despite not knowing each other that well. but it felt very covenanted. the feeling is amazing.

and i thank GOD for sustaining me till so far. really. it has not been easy. but i give thanks to Him that His grace is sufficient for me..He gives me strength.

help me g.r.o.w. looking forward to breakthroughs. :)

found some photos tt carrie took last time at the airport when junting, my then shep, left for australia nt too long ago.. heres one. :) chris, sher, carrie with me..

as i look at the pic.. i can't help but smile to myself..

that i really have great buds like them. and as how i usually see them..they r the "u-know-they-will-be-ere'-for-u-rain-or-shine" buddies in church. despite us serving in diff campuses now..and not really having time to meet up n catch up..i m thankful for the tiny little chats tt we manage whenever we r at s11..or outside nexus while waiting for svc to start. the feeling is of warmth..of a close sense of bond. a feeling of knowing that running the race with these ppl at different places but with the same purpose is all so worth it...an exact feeling undescribable.. :)

still doing HO assignment. but its progressing. thats encouraging enough for me. :)

went to settler's cafe for cg..had fun! hahas we played a v challenging game called ulramnah..or dunno what..basically is a building game. was an eye opener.

oh..n tonight....i had a shock hearing something jus now...

alright, i reframe..not a shock..but it did came as a surprise.

wow. GOD.. i know u r using me to measures that i cannot fathom..not within my human understanding.

by ur grace..with faith..i will be a gd steward. amen.

a joke-of-the-centuryyyy..a proud production of chua family. alright. at least i tot so. here goes:

dad got a videoclip thingy on his handphone today fr his colleague. excitedly, he shared w sis.

so..he got his handphone n said: "zhen ah, lai kan zhe ge!" = "zhen ah, come and see this one."(literally translated.)

"she me lai de.."= "what is it.."

so dad showed. an initial D scene of the mountains and roads. and this fast speeding car....

so sis focused on the moving car...and suddenly..at this turning point of jungles..THE CAR DISAPPEARED!

so sis peered closer.... n held the handphone even closer........

WRAAAAAAAAHHH!! the stupid monster looking person appeared!

n sis THREW THE HANDPHONE OUT!!

....

n my dear lao pa..knowing tt will be the response..(cos probably he threw his colleague's hp in the same way too...) was all prepared to CATCH it. n thankfully...he got it. hahahhas!!!

den...sis called mum who was preparing dinner..

"MUMMYYY!! come n see this!!!!"

cai ma ma..aka my mum..appeared from behind the kitchen door...

with a knife in her hands.

sis: "put down the knifeeeee..come here and seeee.."

cai ma ma: "No need la!! i cutting vegetableesss. HURRY UP la!"

sis:" CANNNNNNOTTTTTTT...YOU MUST PUT DOWN TO SEEEEEE..."

cai ma ma: " BU yong La!!! kan handphone er yi!!" = no need la!! look at handphone onlyy..

sis: "Jus listen to meeeeeee...MUST put down!!!"

and this went on for quite a while.

in the end. mum gave up...she put the knife.....

behind her back..n said " like that can already right?? cannot seeeeee le" (obviously she din know tt she can kill someone almost instantly by jabbing into dad who is holding the hp by watching tt.)

sis went berserk. "Give me knifeeeeee."

n FINALLY the OBSTINATE cai ma ma as usual..gave in and complained and sat on the sofa. knife safely in kitchen.

n hid behind dad's sleeves cos she know it must be something horribleeee.

n true enough..she THREW HANDPHONE.

poor dad.

but imagine..throwing..knife.

now in nus central lib..met reg to catch up n at the same time..to mk sure i will not waste my afternoon away..so here i m..tapping on their lan. hee. thanks to weilan. hahas.

w reg..and supposedly doing my HO Assignment.

i mean.. i m doing. but am always stuck somewhere, somehow.

nvm. prata after this is my motivation. i shall work hard now.

.....

List of things-to-do i had in mind when i logged on..so far..checked:
1.Plan of MCG
2.Send proposal to ZX
3.Send eilton the list of names for Ubin recce
4.HO assignment
5.Check out the name for the peg board ax
6.Bring earphones tmr!

the red ones r completed. green's half done. now a new list:

1. Msg Cady n Joanne abt their roles for Ubin

woo. not bad. jus one. hahhas. k time to rest. after lim-ming my milo.

nights world.

learnt something abt myself recently.

i m a worrier. n a pretty bad one too.

but..i really wan to be a WARRIOR..not a worrier. but sometimes, u really struggle to be one victorious one in pressing circumstances.

but hey, i thank God for this environment tt i can stretch myself and beyond. is really a testing grd for me. new grd for breakthru. God..i need more of u in this.

and i think i have been using all my brute strength..my own understanding..my own words even..to encourage myself..to motivate myself thru this period.

but of cos, Man is limited. theres only thhhhaaaat much tt u can make ur spirits uplifted.

Matthew 6:25-27 [Do Not Worry] 25"I tell you, do not worry. Don't worry about your life and what you will eat or drink. And don't worry about your body and what you will wear. Isn't there more to life than eating? Aren't there more important things for the body than clothes?
26"Look at the birds of the air. They don't plant or gather crops. They don't put away crops in storerooms. But your Father who is in heaven feeds them. Aren't you worth much more than they are?
27"Can you add even one hour to your life by worrying?

really impacted by the last verse. Can i even add one hour to my life by worrying? No i can't. i simply can't. so why spend time worrying and fussing over the uncertainties in life? do i have tt little faith in God to hold my future?

i wan to experience a breakthru in this. i really look forward to tt. :)

o. i grew a lady's finger plant last week, for the sake that i will have such 'over-garden' topics w my frens to talk abt..cos ALMOST ALL of em have cucumbers sprouting in hydroponics, cabbage blooming..runner's seeds growing. SO THAT's it. i grew one too. hahahs despite not really having the passion to grow a plant. i wan to be relevant. Hahahhs!

and... it grew SOOO much over the weekend! i was really pleasantly surprised! and its then, did i really felt the joy in seeing YOUR very own plant grow! this ownership u cannot explain.. i was beaming fr ear to ear when i saw my seedlings fr my cup at the garden. wow.

n u know wad..i dunno why. but i was v reminded tt in fact, everyone's life is jus like a seed. someone was interested in u, and hence, planted u in fertile soil..water it..and place it under sunlight for it to grow. the person planted it. the person takes the ownership of the plant. the person yearns for the day it GROWs.

i was immediately reminded of God's immeasurable love. in the OT garden..yes. He is the Creator. He planted us in good soil. and just as i watched how my classmates loved and adored their plants, He adores us. despite how others may find it repulsive (i.e the old me..who used to HATE IT WHEN I ALWAYS HAD TO ACCOMPANY THEM TO GARDEN To CHECK OUT their plants), the Planter tks the ownership, and responsibility of the life He planted. He nurtures it. He waters it. He watches it grow.

I vividly rem elain's plant being infected w virus then..and how upset she was. she couldnt bear to put it to death. i was once again reminded then, that even tho each and everyone of us has 'virus' within us and is so imperfect, He loves us so much to not put us to death..but to die on the cross himself for our sake. tell me..where else can i find such unconditional love.

nowhere.

i wan to be the seed that grows and bears fruits.

God. prune me and use me.

Amen.

coming here to blog will only mean one thing fr now till 4 wks later.

i am jus so sickkkkkkkk or doing the assignments. and tt's why i am here to unwind.

puking-fying assignments.

but i know no matter how repulsive they are..i ll finish em one la. is sch work..how can i leave em aloneeee...

i m quite into powerpuff girls nowadays..dun ask me why. tho i have NV really watched the cartoons before.

i think corrinemay's little superhero girl instilled a high level of interest in me for these girls.

is jus tt i..seem to be able to identify w em to a certain extent somehow. hahas.

hahah..tt i shall elaborate further when i m more sane..but jus found some stuff tt r soo cutee...

they really brighten up my night. :)

see these lyrics!

Love Makes The World Go Around
Bubbles: Open your eyes and take in every thing that you see.
Look at all the colors, red, yellow, blue, & green.
We can take an airplane and fly across the globe, look down upon the colors.
C'mon everyone, let's go.

Because...
Buttercup: Love
Blossom: Love
Bubbles: Love
Girls: La La Love, La La Love makes the world go 'round.
Love, love, love, la la love, la la love makes the world go round.

Bubbles: Open your ears and listen what the world has to say.
Hear the birds & bells and you will have a brighter day.
Everyone has a special song deep inside their heart.
If you want, you could sing with us, it's the perfect place to start.
Buttercup: Love, love, love, la la love, la la love makes the world go 'round.

Bubbles: You can't hurt me with the things that you do,
I'll pick up dandelions and I'll give them to you.

Blossom: Puppy dogs, kitty cats swimming through. (repeat)

Buttercup: Love
Blossom: Love
Bubbles: Love
Girls: La la love, la la love makes the world go 'round.
Buttercup: Love
Bubbles: Love
Blossom: Love
Girls: La la love, la la love makes the world go 'round.

hehe. is obvious tt Blossom is the lead singer..hurhur. ;)

shock of shock.

opened door. saw sis n derek on the living room floor. hear dice.

peered under coffee table. realised....

MONOPOLY. at 9pm?! 2 of them?! n pls consider how old they r.

n they were totally ENJOYING IT.

hmmm.. mid-twenties crisis?

i din learn tt in LLD tho.... hmmmm...

Know something? reading shuyi's blog always gives me a really different perspective. i really learn a lot fr her entries.

her entries have taught me to really integrate God's word into practice..to give serious thots to what He has spoken to me..and act it out.

great sis, great encouragement. :)

had cg today. led the theme on"how to stay motivated." hehs.

quite ironic actually..cos i can smell myself fizzling already..w all the stress n work in sch.

but tot God was really cute. He will always use the most unworthy person to impart His priceless truth.

n hence..i was the 'chosen' one to lead the girls.

unworthy..but by His grace, i m given the privilege to do so. thank u Lord. i m indeed blessed.

learning does not just come by thru listening..but by teaching as well. i've given my best today. n i really brought back a lot today too.

God really speaks when u desire to impart His truth, His words. Cindy msg-ed me once again to thank me for the night. guess what? her simple msgs always remind me tt it was all worth it.

to invest time in HIs kingdom..His people. it reaps. n cindy is one such fruit. :)

it's been a tough wk for me mentally. i jus cant tk my mind off the case. i really dunno how i can help..when the person's jus running away fr everything.

all i can do is to..p.r.a.y.

God, stir it in his heart. help him to put on ur lenses that Lord, he may come to understand u experience ur love in a different measure.

"pour my life to nourish others." yes Lord. i wan to live it out.

anyway, heres part of shuiyi's blog tt inspired me. hope it speaks to u as well. :)

Devotions entry: in quietness God whispers.
Kinda jumped out of my bed after my half consciously prayed prayer and dashed to the basin brushing my teeth with supersonic speed, in my head, going through the things I have to do next, today and telling myself, stop thinking about the things I did not do yesterday.Isaiah 30:15-1715
This is what the Sovereign LORD, the Holy One of Israel, says: "In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength, but you would have none of it. 16 You said, 'No, we will flee on horses.' Therefore you will flee! You said, 'We will ride off on swift horses.' Therefore your pursuers will be swift! 17 A thousand will flee at the threat of one; at the threat of five you will all flee away, till you are left like a flagstaff on a mountaintop, like a banner on a hill."
All these while, trying to tell myself to be still. I wonder why God likes stillness so much, that it is emphasized repeatedly in the bible. In Isaiah, there's a part where God asks us to be still and after that He shows us the outcome of those who aren't. Ah, not a nice outcome.And why can God be heard only in stillness.
Is it normal physics? Like if it's too noisy and one tries to speak, it gets muffled?Checking out Psalm 46. God is just so great, so good, that when we know it, we can't help but slow the pace of life down and gaze lovingly at Him. When you're so busy with so many things, where do you find the time to think about Him.But I really feel it is when your heart's at peace, you feel so blessed by Him, then whatever your hand touches, there's some kinda magic.
You know the times you find normally dreading and boring things fun to do? :)
Father, teach me how to be still. Just like Jesus commanded the storm, "Quiet! Be still" and it was still. Do the same to my soul and my heart.I did hear You whispering just now. ;)
God is so interesting! It's just like how You appeared to Elijah. Not in the wind, nor earthquake, nor fire, but, strangely and surely enough, in a gentle whisper. :)

Little SUperhero Girl- Corrine.may
I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world
Everybody wants a piece of me
And I just don't know where to turn
I've got work piled up to my head
All I want to do is jump into bed
And wash away my troubles with lemonade
Play hide and seek with the boy next door
Take a trip to Singapore and
Imagine how I'll make the world a better place

All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognise
That I'm feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters (= Assignmentttts!! examsss!!!! DREAD!!) into outer space
I'm gonna be a Superhero

Na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-Yeah

If I were a little girl
Trying to clean up the whole wide world
I'd kick the bad boys back to school
Teach them fighting's just not cool
I'd give every kid a teddy bear
Turn starving people into millionaires
Break glass ceilings with dynamite
sprinkle a little sugar and spice
Turn the bullies that terrorize
Into pink poodles that bark, but don't bite
All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognise
That I'm feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I'm gonna be a Superhero

Na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-Yeah
Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me
Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me from myself

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world.:)

bascially, this can be the summary of how i m feeling tonight. pants.

i really dont know if things r getting better over the other side. like wad reg say, all i can do is to jus uphold it in prayers.
the 3 kids r having their psle tmr. prayed for em today. was kinda weird for em n me!! hannah was the translator tho..she requested tt i slow down..hahahhas! so i prayed a really S.L.O.W prayer while she signed. the boys were tickled. cos i guess they dun see their tutors doing tt often yeah. but i pray tt indeed God will anoint em with wisdom n strength thruout tmr..or rather..today's paper. :)

got this email fr shu-jun.. ;)




Sometimes we wonder, "What did I do to deserve this?" or "Why did God have to do this to me?" Here is a wonderful explanation! A daughter is telling her Mother how everything is going wrong, she's failing algebra, her boyfriend broke up with her and her best friend is moving away. Meanwhile, her Mother is baking a cake and asks her daughter if she would like a snack, and the daughter says, "Absolutely Mom, I love your cake." "Here, have some cooking oil," her Mother offers. "Yuck" says her daughter. "How about a couple raw eggs?" "Gross, Mom!" "Would you like some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?" "Mom, those are all yucky!" To which the mother replies: "Yes, all those things seem bad all by themselves. But when they are put together in the right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake! God works the same way. Many times we wonder why He would let us go through such bad and difficult times. But God knows that when He puts these things all in His order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him and, eventually, they will all make something wonderful! God is crazy about you. He sends you flowers every spring and a sunrise every morning. Whenever you want to talk, He'll listen. He can live anywhere in the universe, and He chose your heart. If you like this, send this on to the people you really care about. I did. Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance.

I hav nv been in shock to the state tt i feel my legs were shivering, u know. nv.
but i felt tt all over me ytd.
i felt disappointment deep within me..but yet, i know its an excellent chance for u to put ur faith in Lord Jesus..
i really dunno wads ur motive for asking me to come down n see u do all tt, but certainly, the act doesnt affect me..at all.
cos i jus think tt's a really superficial way of dealing w ur heart, ur emotions.
yes, u may think ALL is gone. i dont deny tt. but tt's only i put myself into ur present frame of thoughts. if i should put on the lens of God, i know..MOST r gone..but never all.
i'm glad i had this opportunity to pray for u, cos i need to let u know tt Man will fail u..leave u, forsake u..but..GOD..will always be by ur side. HE is the only one who wil nv jus love u based on conditions. HE don't love u cos of ur achievements. HE don't love u cos HE thinks u r capable.
unlike the rest, HE loves u..regardless of who u r. HE acknowledges u as the apple of HIS eye all the same.
tt's what i call unconditional love.
the best gift, or rather, support i can give u right now, is nothing but, Prayer.
i've prayed my heart. i've prayed to tears well in my eyes. i feel so convicted abt it.
the rest is all up to u my friend. it really is.
tk tt bold step of faith.

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.....hmm. it rhymes.

i have had so so much to say..but....stooopid bloggger jus wun work ytd.

hahha so for now jus wan to share this that i learn during dmm ytd. i m totally amused.

17These hard times are small potatoes compared to the coming good times, the lavish celebration prepared for us.- 2 cor 4:17 (The Message)

Small potatoes!!!!? i really laughed. so cute. so apt.

finally got my lapp..like it. almost the same size as the ol' one and same colour and almost same design. yeah...think i m not v open to changes. see..even it reflects in my choice of stuff. got to change..hurhur

going to mit huimei before comb team rally now. laters. ;)