AND! i want to give thanks for someone!

Yes its you Silvana!

THANKS for taking time to do up a personalised timetable! I am really blessed!! i needed a soft copy NICE timetable, and i got it thru u! its nice..i totally love it!

honestly, i was physically tired fr head to toe today. or rather ytd..as in wednesday. ok u get the drift. i still think its today. hahas.

was wondering how i am going to really to stay alert to mit up the girls.

i dunno. haha. i just prayed. for strength and that i will do my best. ;)

and, i totally loved today! i was reminded of this verse in proverbs 11:25..he who refreshes others will himself be refreshed. so apt. so true.

know what's a more powerful agent than coffee to keep awake? ;) (haha i was just reminded of chipmunk's decaf coffee..haha)

presence of God.

i dont want to get caught into the cliches of things. but as i reflect upon today, the Word of God really refreshed me. I felt conviction strengthening as i share with nah and han.

even when i met deb at nydc after 'em, i still felt empowered by the Holy Ghost to spend time with this girl.

shared with nah and han abt the 2 bible characters, Joshua and Moses. i recall Jasmine sharing with full conviction about leadership.

and i suddenly could understand the conviction even better when i verbalise it to others. now i know..no wonder they always say its always different being a consumer from a producer. the level of conviction deepens. :)

and also what i've learnt fr sun's seminar. today, something else stirred. its abt this point of spending time of every moment of everyday with the person, if u want to know this person personally..

hear Him, anytime, anywhere. thru ppl, thru circumstances, thru His word, thru worship..in quietness. anywhere.

don't limit God with the capacity of my own human brain, mx. if i can ever limit it within the boundary of my own brain, He won't be God.

i was exceptionally hit again by the analogy Dr keith made..about using our own understanding to interpret God and His Word, without Him. its as if putting a CD into a toaster. its incompatible.

i enjoyed the time exploring different qns with Deb as well, even to topics of change in physical appearance..

my personal stand to her is this..something which i use when i am stuck in dilemmas and indecisiveness..

i ask myself..:mx, if i do this, will it extend the KOG?

if Yes, why not? Nike! (Just do it!)

if it doesnt affect at all (in other words, no effect if u do it or not), then u have a choice of doing it or u don't. doesnt matter at all actually.

BUT, if it HINDERS the extension of the KOG, then, don't do it.

so far, i found this personal benchmark to be helpful in helping the indecisive me, to keep the main thing the main thing.. thou i think i still fail many times.

i m still learning. teach me Lord, to live my life thru ur eyes.

Blessed 23rd, my dearest leader liyan! thanks for investing your youth in our lives!

Blessed 21st, lenny! i thank the Lord for the friendship we share!

Blessed 21st, colin! thanks for your leadership as a coach in Hope resources!

these guys have been a blessing to me in their own ways! :) thanks!

this weekend has been amazingly powerful. i felt that every single teaching was for me. really.

it all started from saturday, with the sermon Ps Lawrence preached. I always enjoy the way Ps Lawrence delivers his teaching. he always conveys his msg thru a movie clip, thru activities. i am someone who learns from impression.

back to the main stuff. guess whats the title?

Love in Action.

So apt. i need that.

Ps Lawrence shared about this guy in the Bible, Philemon. He is someone who has no unforgiving bone in his body! He always appreciate GOD for the good in others (Philemon 1:4-5).

Ps Lawrence shared that he is "thanksgiving-challenged". i can absolutely identify with that. its not very natural of me to want to give thanks for every single thing that GOD has placed in my life. I find it easier to play the devil's advocate most of the time.

He also shared that God wants to stretch our love. i was like..FWAH. God u customised this teaching for me. I can almost envision myself frantically waving to GOd with both of my hands.."YeS YES! It's me LORD!! I feel so limited in my capacity to love!"

attended CLM. jasmine shared to us about being 'charismatic' leaders. i love the way she puts it. its so true.
Do you have... C.H.A.R.I.S.M.A?

C are
H elp
A ffimative
R elate
I nitiative
S mile!
A vailable.

and guess what...each time she reveals one alphabet, i felt like.."ops. i don't have this. o no, i have NONE of that.."

argh. and trust me. the feeling wasnt gd.

but guess wad, i felt really encouraged, and am determined to turn tables. to grow in these areas! there wont be any excuse that His kingdom wont advance then.

its possible. with God, all things are possible. :)

more i've learnt. but got to KO now. gd nights world.

and happy birthday dearest deb!!

0940hr

i love waking up early nowadays. i feel gd, i feel ready for a great day ahead! i feel that i am ready to embrace the challenges ahead as well. and seriously, with waking up early, i feel right with God and everything. i love the breeze thats blowing in now. i love the sun that's on shining over my table top now. i am enjoying my breakfast of beehoon now (now they taste delicious, the used to taste soggy by the time i wake up...). i am enjoying the noise the floor cleaner is making outside my house now cos i am someone who works with a bit of noise (which i am usually irritated by cos i am trying to steal sleep).

i love mornings! good morning Lord!

i remember ps ben once shared.."do u often say: Good Lord! It's morning...... Or Good Morning, Lord!" i think i have been stuck in the previous for very very very long. time to move on!

enjoy every single day of our lives, it should be that way. but often, i am slowly being chewed away by many worries of life..

time to sit down, relax, and starbucks with God.

i thank God for the past one week. I feel "right-er" with Him.

after reflections of 2005. be ready for a 2006.

preparing to meet the camp comm soon! i will be doing materials. i m really really excited for this camp, tho i highly doubt that i can make it cos its during my clinicals.

nevertheless, i am thankful to be given such an opportunity to lead in the area of materials!

a new experience. :)

"This is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it. :)"

Just woke up. had quite a gd rest after ytd's match with ngee ann. amazingly, and i'm sure it was by God's grace, we won!

not trying to be holy or what ppl often misunderstood as "everything-is-God-God-God-in-good-times".

at least i felt God's empowerment for myself. as i seek strength from Him, He empowers me during the stress-est periods. i feel that hey, i am in control.

i'm jus glad we all tried our best! its great to see everyone putting in the utmost effort despite slim chances.

esp pearlyn and fishcake who has nv paired up before! but u guys did well! and zixian as wel, who nv play for like 2 yrs??!

anyway, josie just sent me this email. thought it was pretty interesting. enjoy! :)

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loads..heap loads of things happened just as new year started. pretty overwhelmed initially..but slowly..slowly..i think it all made sense to me. :) thank God for His unfailing faithfulness.

last week was a complete mess for me. a crazy one. a terrible one even i would say..but perhaps thru the lenses of mine, it seemed really horrible.

i did not understand why everything happened all at the same time? i felt like a squeeze ball that was entirely squeezed to bits, with intense pressure from every aspect of my life.

i guess wed was a great learning lesson for me. i will bear it in mind. painful lesson, but it really brought me to a much deeper level of understanding and trust in God. and really..i could not bring myself to concentrate for the whole of the next day. i was actually brooding..dwelling..and even mentally rehearsing some words that were said in my brain..

the feeling was horrid. i hate the feeling whenever my emotions get out of hands. seriously. and the really torturous part was tt i had to continue life on thurs as normal. no time for a breather. many times i just had to stay in the toilet to pray.

a moulding time. make or break.

of cos had blessings as well! Hope Resource Annual Appreciation Night was on fri! me and shuyi, jitsy and david as well did the deco and mini door gifts. ;) i really love the spirit of these ppl, ever full of energy and joy in serving God. non-complaining, ever-rejoicing. funnily, but i thought that that night, it was really the time i managed to break the "bondage" of dwelling finally. cos i found more reasons to serve with joy than to wallow in self-pity! self-pity- OUT!

though it was a simple gathering, i truly enjoyed myself tt night. i thought it was a warm atmosphere of people. i m v inspired by this sister especially from adults grp- xue mei. she is extremely sincere.. and i think that her sincerity moves me greatly. and what surprises me what that ive gotten the best new volunteer award..hahahs. really. *cross my heart* i nv imagine that whole chunk of description was mee. but thanks so much for that affirmation. it encouraged me a lot. :)

celebrated hannah's and joanna's birthday as well! i'm ready for an exciting journey with u hannah. a convenanted journey. :)

and joanna! although i managed to attend just half an hr...but i could really sense the love in ur family and extended family! it really warms me! thanks for being such a great host!

sat's svc was awesome. it ministered to me in a very personal level. God, you really know my heart condition. it was battered and torn, but ur love mended it...and really, Your love, still amazes me.. Your love, really melts me.

i dont know how many people could see tt, but i am someone who is not quite expressive in emotions. but i dont think that equates to me being emotionless..in fact, i will say i m emotion-ful..hahah not emotional tho', ok, if u get what i am trying to say..hahas.

xuan once mentioned, i could still vividly remember, that he feels that i am like a man.

hardy and yeah..not really letting feelings get over the better of me.

but i think, not really true either, its just tt its happening all within me..cos i m poor at expressing. hahas.

whatever it is, just remember to realign ur heart with God. :)

Lord, . i do not want to turn cold to everything..keep me warm. my heart, keep it pumping hard! i give thanks for ur gentle encouragement and nudge thru the worship and Word!

wow. u know what. it was an extreme feeling of victory over defeat that day. i rejoiced, i felt freee from the bondage of words, of discouragement, of hurts.

i know that, if Christ is in the centre of it all, everything is going to be working out beautifully.. :)

mx, relax. learn to let go, and let Him.

"letting go of me, holding on to You.."

had cg today. i love it. you know why? cos 2 special people joined us! cg must be beyond a holy huddle! but one with new faces new faces new faces!

shareen's first time with us at cg, and pris as well. ;)

i love today as well, cos i get to spend time with everyone.

and pris, i am truly thankful for ur openness in sharing during cg. i was touched by ur sincerity and willingness to share. i do believe as well, that this friendship is not a coincidence. :)

and of cos, i do hope that one day, u will recognise that He loves u, He cares for u. and He sends u friends too. :)

in Ecclesiates 4, it says "Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work: If one falls down, his friend can help him up. "

uve been a blessing to me, really. encouraged me a lot, in ways in which u may not know, but yups, i really give thanks for having u around.

wheee....time to rest.

with Christ in the vessel, I can SMILE at the storm. :)


Col 3:23..Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, 24since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.