I'm back!

for 2 days.

and this is the second day. hahas!

heard great testimonies from Singapore! Converts from Easter and powerful healing session during Camp! Praise the Lord! God has been really good!

God has been good in Penang as well. :)) He has blessed me with great support and contacts. Pulau Pinang is a beautiful place. I am learning a lot from the people, the children in the centre, the culture, the food, Hope Church Penang, and of course, i have learnt a whole lot more about myself. :))

Going back tonight and expecting a packed but exciting 4 weeks ahead! The centre's celebrating the 20th Anniversary this Sunday, and i am really looking forward to the children dance!

some pics to bring u guys to a peek of Penang first. more to come when i m back in sing in May. :))

till May..take cr! :))

have so much to share!

like to thank all the bros and sis whom really gave me a warm time. great spending time with all of u! will greatly miss all of u guys over in sing. :))

and the gifts and words and smses and books and flowers. love u guys.

pulau pinang, here i come!

talking about some idiosyncrasies of life.

past week till now had led me to have some restful time with God, and allowed forms of reflections to take place, be it easter f&p, or just purely, some random thinking of my life.

at the same time, it was also a pretty stressful period, where exams were ongoing.

however, i really thank the Lord, for the peace that He has given me, to go through this time, with much strength.

felt strongly about a few areas of my life. Discipline, deeds with love, big picture, perserverance.

off to meet mei, then tuition, and then preps for tmr's paper.

random:
was studying for neuropsychology the other day. stated that right hemisphere of brain goes for the big picture, whilst the left are more for details and the small.

so, if i should apply that theory, left handers are peeps with big pic and right handers detailed? so guess i got to use my left hand more to improve in that area of my life soon. ;) hawhaw.

Was browsing through Church website and chanced upon Hong Teck's blog.

http://ragsjournal.blogspot.com/

Was pretty thrilled! Cos I have been hearing about this man and his wife from Hannah and Cady (HOPE Kids) for the past few months, but never got the opportunity to interact with him. (:

Also, it was also of the stories that I have heard from the 2 girls that I know their transition to HOPEKids Adults ministry will be an exciting one, with lots to look forward to!

And I was also impacted by Hannah's initiative to do a HOPEKids musical for the children in church for this year! Hearing her share makes me excited too!

I was intrigued by the blog address, firstly. ragsjournal, it wrote.

Rags? hahas. and came to realise it was inspired by Isaiah 64:6.

And the pics of his 3 children. (:

And as i browsed through the blog, I was wow-ed by the paintings that he drew, and the songs he composed for the children ministry!

And his entries brought me much thoughts as well. a sure blog to visit. (:

this is one interesting pic that me and yuhan happen to take at sha villa hotel. ((:

and yuhan's caption for it was:

Shepherds, do not bully your sheep.

hawhaw.

No Greater Love

You loved me when I was so unlovely
You sought me when I was lost
You showed me how much You really loved me
When You bought me at the highest cost

There's no greater love than this
There's no greater love than this
That a man would give his life for a friend
There's no higher sacrifice
Than a man would give his life
You have paid the highest price for me

You chose me when I was so unworthy
You cleansed me with Your own blood
You clothed me with righteousness and mercy
And You crowned me with Your steadfast love

went down to nexus to put up the boards for the coming saturday's community service ministry! (:

it's Hope Centre's 10th Anniversary. So blessed 10th birthday Hope Centre (S)!

Saw Dorcas, and had a brief chat with her. In her last term now. Her baby is due next month! So excited for her! It's a girl!

Asked how is she coping with the pregnancy, she mentioned that it is painful for her almost every second. I was pretty taken aback, cos from her look and expression, and her coming down to help out in the setting up of the boards didn't reflect the "pain every second" part, really.

I was really amazed at how she coped with the pain. And it did not deter her to serve the Lord during this period of time as well. What she said captured my heart, about living a balanced life as a mother, and as well as appreciating the role of a mother.

It helped me to realise the efforts my mum put in for me, and the sacrifices she made for my life.

Its all about the love of a parent to the child. An unconditional love, which often is neglected and easily forgotten. (: It's great to have people like Dorcas to allow me to realign my appreciation for my loved ones, again.

GOD is faithful.

And yes, that we all know. :)

But God is really faithful in remembering us. And I am so loved by Him in many areas of my life.

And all this boils down to the fact of, willingness to obey, and to seek him.

for the past few months, it was energy-consuming for me.

and i think the whole turning point came about when i fell sick physically. And i realise, i am not that (as in thhhhaaat) young anymore.

I need rest, i don't have endless energy. And as much as i think that God will sustain me, I need to exercise some wisdom over my life. To be a good steward over my temple.

You cant be a spiritual giant with an withered body and mind, can you? :))

Time with liyan yesterday was good. I enjoyed the simple fellowship. Have been evaluating and reflecting upon my life recently. And hence, i asked her about what she thinks I can do better in as well.

And i am really glad that i asked, cos what i see will always be what i see. and i will only work on what i see. I am always thankful to my friends who are open, and trust me, and care for me enough to help me grow in my areas of weakness.

Better is open rebuke, than hidden love, as said in Proverbs.

Her sharing was consistent with what a friend commented on my life as well: Looking at the Big Picture.

And in many areas of my life, i know that He has put me in situations whereby i got to grow in this. I thank God that He created these opportunities and room for me to grow. :))

Yes, I will work on it. And as what Ps Jeff shared during sermon that day, we need a growth point besides growth areas in our life.

Growth Point!

And all excited for Penang! My first time to visit a Hope Church besides Singapore. Haha, its a pity that my curriculum timings are never "normal". It always clashes with the majority.

So praise the Lord, for this opportunity to have attachment in Penang, and a time whereby I can visit their local church as well. :)

It's amazing, how God has blessed me abundantly in my life, even though I deserve none of it. How He never failed to pour in blessings to the group and to grow it. New blood, new leaders.

Now it's all my side of the game to play. To capture the heartbeat of Christ and do likewise. To water it faithfully, with wisdom and a lens of eternity. To learn to be Kingdom-minded, for His people and the many generations ahead.

Pour out all that I have, for His eternal glory. Am I up to it?

I believe I can, when I choose to consecrate myself, live a life of obedience, and surrender my life fully to Him. By His grace, I can.

It's going to be exciting!

utan's off to china. ((: till i see u again in july.

its been long. (:

once again, happenings and things, just pass you by.

this period of time has given me a new experience with Him. (:

going for a jog at 6am. I must wake up and make it. hahas.

it will be once again a great time i reckon.

A poem, dedicated to students by lecturer. I have been looking at it for quite some time. Pondering.

The Road Not Taken
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveller, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps te better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden back.
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less travelled by,
And that has made all the difference.

-Robert Frost (1874-1963)

the boon and bane of techology.

talking to my sis. Online. same house.

Gina says:
little red heels has new stuff liao
Gina says:
u can check them out
mx::..deftness.:: with Your hand in mine, I'll go where You lead me.:: says:
DIAOS
Gina says:
i think min's stuffs nicer
mx::..deftness.:: with Your hand in mine, I'll go where You lead me.:: says:
u r their fav fan hors
Gina says:
yaya
mx::..deftness.:: with Your hand in mine, I'll go where You lead me.:: says:
what stuff?
mx::..deftness.:: with Your hand in mine, I'll go where You lead me.:: says:
AND HOR
Gina says:
me check out their shop everyday
mx::..deftness.:: with Your hand in mine, I'll go where You lead me.:: says:
is like we are just 3 metres apart lo
Gina says:
walk in walk out very ma fan
mx::..deftness.:: with Your hand in mine, I'll go where You lead me.:: says:
dum dum
Gina says:
u go on go on
Gina says:
we pay for e net ok
mx::..deftness.:: with Your hand in mine, I'll go where You lead me.:: says:
hur hur. han na han na
mx::..deftness.:: with Your hand in mine, I'll go where You lead me.:: says:
what u doing now?
Gina says:
checking out bags on other international websites
Gina says:
ur lao jie also wanna start heer own biz k
Gina says:
PLS SUPPORT
Gina says:
HA3
Gina says:
mx::..deftness.:: with Your hand in mine, I'll go where You lead me.:: says:
u better do a good job lo
mx::..deftness.:: with Your hand in mine, I'll go where You lead me.:: says:
dont go and call urself little black heels
Gina says:
i NVR LIKE BLACK
Gina says:
DUN WORRY

and the conversation goes on.

the techny savvy world. (:

toblerones with carols. loves.

"Christmas will remain, purely and simply, a time for remembering the greatest gift that has been given."- Corrinne.may[The Gift].

this year's christmas meant quite a lot of things to me. (:

for one, this is my 5th Christ-mas.

during the countdown gathering 2 days ago, did some ice-breaking thingyy. had the group to ask 1 other person, these 4 questions.

1. What was previous Christmas experience like?
2. What are your goals and plans for Year 2007?
3. What is your Christmas wish? ((:
4. What is the best gift that you have received so far?

as i was on the bus back with celest that day, i pondered over these qns as well.

brought about a tinge of excitement, at the same time, lots of thanksgiving to the Lord, for where i am today.

had a really blessed and wonderful time carolling with the bros and sis! liyan and cady led one grp, while i led the other. and i was stunned when i realised how "manly" our group were! with the gusto sound of men.for some sweet carols! (:

but boy, i love their spirit! they sang their very best. and blessed were we when we received the offerings! for church building fund. had a great time w these peeps.

i thank the Lord for my spiritual journey. the many whom i have shared my life w, you are treasured.

and for those that i am sharing my life with, i treasure this opportunity to grow tog with all o u.

random: its been really really long, since i last felt this way. shoooo emo. in, His peace.

and one of my fav songs in the album. enjoy. (:

blessed christmas.

the rain continued for the whole day.

sometimes, walking along the roads on rainy days can be quite a nice thing to do. w umbrella that is. and a huge one.:))

i loved the walks in the rain today, with my huge AH umbrella all for myself.

i love times alone like this at times. gives me the whole world of time to sort thru things within me, and to sing to the Lord. hahas. cos likely, you r pretty much alone on the pavements; everyone's in bus or shelters in such heavy rain. :)

so nice. so much space. to breathe and think.

so many things to give thanks to u Lord.. God, i never really dared imagine, how i ll be like, without u in my life, seriously.

thanks Lord, for being there for me always, like tonight. :))

making+writing on cards is a therapeutic activity. :)

coupled with good music.

i love this part about Christmas, where i start to write my greetings and appreciation of that person.

it helps me to recall of how much i have gone through with that person. and it helps me to give thanks to the Lord for the person's life as well.

of cos, the hand muscles starts to show signs of fatigue. hahas. it shows in the cutting, pasting and even handwriting. hurhur.

cup of hot milk and off to snooze. the weather's like cold ah. :))

merryy merry christmas, in advance. :)

drizzles.

and cant get to sleep. once more. :)

this week had been of sleepless nights. feeling the excitement of christmas. i smell christmas. i hear, see and even taste about christmas (that is, the candy canes. ;))

and i guess, its also the racing thoughts that i have in my brain, tt's keeping me awake as well.

havent been updating. but life was fruitful for the past few wks. :)) so much to share, but didnt really have the opportunity to jot the thots down.

u know, i seem to learn a different side of myself within the past few weeks. and i really sense this renewal in my heart as i continue to serve the Lord with the team.

and i was totally awed, and really amazed, and really thankful to the Lord for His faithfulness. :)) my ever, dearest faithful Father.

thanksgiving for the week, and no greater Christmas gifts than these: 4 salvations, who will eternally be with us in Heaven!

15 Dec: Kaisze came to know the Lord through the phone with Shar! in cuppage girls washroom. i was having WKS briefing when shar told me abt kaisze wanting to received Christ. i was really overwhelmed tt i couldnt concentrate on the briefing anymore, and ran to join Shar. PTL!

16 Dec: Wenxin was really open to share abt her hurts, and glad she rededicated her life to Jesus again! :)) enjoyed sharing with her over dinner after svc; a girl with this sweetness in her, and her sincerity in wanting to serve the Lord.

17 Dec night: was on msn. and Deb told me about her bro Dexter, asking her some questions of life. recalled sharing with Deb on sat night after svc online in response to what she asked me; nothing is ever too late for God; is all about the willingness, and obedience to the Lord. And deb being deb, she ll always do the deliberate and intentional to obey the Lord, eventually. Obedience is the key. :))

and the Lord honours her heart! Dexter received Christ at his own home! Praise the Lord! we all know how hardened Dex was in the past. but with faithful prayers and fasting, all things are possible as He hears our cries! :))

18 Dec noon: received a call fr shar after i sent out msgs to encourage the team for the harvest ahead. thought that shar wanted to clarify some stuff with regards to svc this sat. never did i imagine it to be a sharing of Huifen's conversion during attachment!

These experiences proved to me: Salvation, anytime, anywhere. For God is everywhere, everytime. :))

Father, i thank You for listening to each of my whispered prayers. i thank You, for knowing my heart's deepest, where sometimes i get confused as well, but You know my needs and wants; and i thank You for Your faithfulness in my life.

Thank You for Your faithfulness to my team. The cheer of salvations were booster prior to the Christmas service. I am so thankful for this important lesson that You have taught me and my team during this period: Trust in the Lord and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.

Cliche? maybe. To me, its vivid.

It's God's demonstration of His outrageous love to me. I know it. He knows my fears, my strongholds, my innermost thoughts, and He chose to reassure me and gave me encouragement during this period of time.

what greater Love than this?

More to come. Soaked in His Blessings as we soak in Prayers!

have been taking time this week to spend with the Lord, and also with people. with Mum and sis to Garden Festival on mon. busked in the beautiful sights of flowersssss. took gazillion photos! upload soon.

i really really had a good time that day. was so uplifted! i feel like going again! flowers flowers!

You cant help but once again, be in awe of God's creativity and cheer..of the creation of these greens and colours. :)

random: i cant figure out some stuff. and i think i never will. and i think its not important to figure em out. i shall just walk on, and keep my steps close with Him, and trust in You and not myself.

just like this song- i need to be next to You.

no one else. :))

i really love this life i share with You.

nights world.

was obviously disappointed when i saw the sms in the wee hours of the night.

cant help but checked online with a little weight on my heart.

Nevertheless, gathered my energy to view the overalls online.

turned out to be alright! hahas. what i screwed was behavioural science. ?????? phewwwww! not as if i improve much, but seriously, thank you LORD! muacks! :)

learnt: sometimes, things are not what it seems. move on and take the complete picture, and u ll be surprised.

thanks Father. for watching over me always.

being vulnerable and allowing God to take care of you is not really tt easy. :)

but it can be done.

had a good time talking to a few people today..like liyan, deborah. appreciate these times.

btw, if anyone wants to relive singapore workout, drop by a particular sec sch in woodlands and catch me in red and white. doing this exercise for the elderly. a joint collaboration with the police of woodlands. hahas. plus educating the public abt wheelchair transfers etc.

k the chinese version of singapore workout is ringing in my head........

Jesus

1. went,
2. saw, and
3. had compassion.

i desire to be like Him. i want to go, see, and have compassion.

indeed, sometimes its hard to go although instructions are clear, but the purpose is unknown. i love the sermon shared yesterday. spoke right into me.

the Holy Spirit can only use us to our level of obedience.

be Philip. (Acts 8:26-40). be everyready to obey the Holy Spirit.

C.o.m.p.a.s.s.i.o.n for His flock.
P.a.s.s.i.o.n for Him.

don't miss it!

something that Jasmine shared during service today hit me. incremental vs exponential growth. and it was really a great time of prayer and worship together as a church.

desire exponential growth!