coming here to blog will only mean one thing fr now till 4 wks later.

i am jus so sickkkkkkkk or doing the assignments. and tt's why i am here to unwind.

puking-fying assignments.

but i know no matter how repulsive they are..i ll finish em one la. is sch work..how can i leave em aloneeee...

i m quite into powerpuff girls nowadays..dun ask me why. tho i have NV really watched the cartoons before.

i think corrinemay's little superhero girl instilled a high level of interest in me for these girls.

is jus tt i..seem to be able to identify w em to a certain extent somehow. hahas.

hahah..tt i shall elaborate further when i m more sane..but jus found some stuff tt r soo cutee...

they really brighten up my night. :)

see these lyrics!

Love Makes The World Go Around
Bubbles: Open your eyes and take in every thing that you see.
Look at all the colors, red, yellow, blue, & green.
We can take an airplane and fly across the globe, look down upon the colors.
C'mon everyone, let's go.

Because...
Buttercup: Love
Blossom: Love
Bubbles: Love
Girls: La La Love, La La Love makes the world go 'round.
Love, love, love, la la love, la la love makes the world go round.

Bubbles: Open your ears and listen what the world has to say.
Hear the birds & bells and you will have a brighter day.
Everyone has a special song deep inside their heart.
If you want, you could sing with us, it's the perfect place to start.
Buttercup: Love, love, love, la la love, la la love makes the world go 'round.

Bubbles: You can't hurt me with the things that you do,
I'll pick up dandelions and I'll give them to you.

Blossom: Puppy dogs, kitty cats swimming through. (repeat)

Buttercup: Love
Blossom: Love
Bubbles: Love
Girls: La la love, la la love makes the world go 'round.
Buttercup: Love
Bubbles: Love
Blossom: Love
Girls: La la love, la la love makes the world go 'round.

hehe. is obvious tt Blossom is the lead singer..hurhur. ;)

shock of shock.

opened door. saw sis n derek on the living room floor. hear dice.

peered under coffee table. realised....

MONOPOLY. at 9pm?! 2 of them?! n pls consider how old they r.

n they were totally ENJOYING IT.

hmmm.. mid-twenties crisis?

i din learn tt in LLD tho.... hmmmm...

Know something? reading shuyi's blog always gives me a really different perspective. i really learn a lot fr her entries.

her entries have taught me to really integrate God's word into practice..to give serious thots to what He has spoken to me..and act it out.

great sis, great encouragement. :)

had cg today. led the theme on"how to stay motivated." hehs.

quite ironic actually..cos i can smell myself fizzling already..w all the stress n work in sch.

but tot God was really cute. He will always use the most unworthy person to impart His priceless truth.

n hence..i was the 'chosen' one to lead the girls.

unworthy..but by His grace, i m given the privilege to do so. thank u Lord. i m indeed blessed.

learning does not just come by thru listening..but by teaching as well. i've given my best today. n i really brought back a lot today too.

God really speaks when u desire to impart His truth, His words. Cindy msg-ed me once again to thank me for the night. guess what? her simple msgs always remind me tt it was all worth it.

to invest time in HIs kingdom..His people. it reaps. n cindy is one such fruit. :)

it's been a tough wk for me mentally. i jus cant tk my mind off the case. i really dunno how i can help..when the person's jus running away fr everything.

all i can do is to..p.r.a.y.

God, stir it in his heart. help him to put on ur lenses that Lord, he may come to understand u experience ur love in a different measure.

"pour my life to nourish others." yes Lord. i wan to live it out.

anyway, heres part of shuiyi's blog tt inspired me. hope it speaks to u as well. :)

Devotions entry: in quietness God whispers.
Kinda jumped out of my bed after my half consciously prayed prayer and dashed to the basin brushing my teeth with supersonic speed, in my head, going through the things I have to do next, today and telling myself, stop thinking about the things I did not do yesterday.Isaiah 30:15-1715
This is what the Sovereign LORD, the Holy One of Israel, says: "In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength, but you would have none of it. 16 You said, 'No, we will flee on horses.' Therefore you will flee! You said, 'We will ride off on swift horses.' Therefore your pursuers will be swift! 17 A thousand will flee at the threat of one; at the threat of five you will all flee away, till you are left like a flagstaff on a mountaintop, like a banner on a hill."
All these while, trying to tell myself to be still. I wonder why God likes stillness so much, that it is emphasized repeatedly in the bible. In Isaiah, there's a part where God asks us to be still and after that He shows us the outcome of those who aren't. Ah, not a nice outcome.And why can God be heard only in stillness.
Is it normal physics? Like if it's too noisy and one tries to speak, it gets muffled?Checking out Psalm 46. God is just so great, so good, that when we know it, we can't help but slow the pace of life down and gaze lovingly at Him. When you're so busy with so many things, where do you find the time to think about Him.But I really feel it is when your heart's at peace, you feel so blessed by Him, then whatever your hand touches, there's some kinda magic.
You know the times you find normally dreading and boring things fun to do? :)
Father, teach me how to be still. Just like Jesus commanded the storm, "Quiet! Be still" and it was still. Do the same to my soul and my heart.I did hear You whispering just now. ;)
God is so interesting! It's just like how You appeared to Elijah. Not in the wind, nor earthquake, nor fire, but, strangely and surely enough, in a gentle whisper. :)

Little SUperhero Girl- Corrine.may
I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world
Everybody wants a piece of me
And I just don't know where to turn
I've got work piled up to my head
All I want to do is jump into bed
And wash away my troubles with lemonade
Play hide and seek with the boy next door
Take a trip to Singapore and
Imagine how I'll make the world a better place

All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognise
That I'm feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters (= Assignmentttts!! examsss!!!! DREAD!!) into outer space
I'm gonna be a Superhero

Na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-Yeah

If I were a little girl
Trying to clean up the whole wide world
I'd kick the bad boys back to school
Teach them fighting's just not cool
I'd give every kid a teddy bear
Turn starving people into millionaires
Break glass ceilings with dynamite
sprinkle a little sugar and spice
Turn the bullies that terrorize
Into pink poodles that bark, but don't bite
All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognise
That I'm feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I'm gonna be a Superhero

Na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-Yeah
Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me
Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me from myself

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world.:)

bascially, this can be the summary of how i m feeling tonight. pants.

i really dont know if things r getting better over the other side. like wad reg say, all i can do is to jus uphold it in prayers.
the 3 kids r having their psle tmr. prayed for em today. was kinda weird for em n me!! hannah was the translator tho..she requested tt i slow down..hahahhas! so i prayed a really S.L.O.W prayer while she signed. the boys were tickled. cos i guess they dun see their tutors doing tt often yeah. but i pray tt indeed God will anoint em with wisdom n strength thruout tmr..or rather..today's paper. :)

got this email fr shu-jun.. ;)




Sometimes we wonder, "What did I do to deserve this?" or "Why did God have to do this to me?" Here is a wonderful explanation! A daughter is telling her Mother how everything is going wrong, she's failing algebra, her boyfriend broke up with her and her best friend is moving away. Meanwhile, her Mother is baking a cake and asks her daughter if she would like a snack, and the daughter says, "Absolutely Mom, I love your cake." "Here, have some cooking oil," her Mother offers. "Yuck" says her daughter. "How about a couple raw eggs?" "Gross, Mom!" "Would you like some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?" "Mom, those are all yucky!" To which the mother replies: "Yes, all those things seem bad all by themselves. But when they are put together in the right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake! God works the same way. Many times we wonder why He would let us go through such bad and difficult times. But God knows that when He puts these things all in His order, they always work for good! We just have to trust Him and, eventually, they will all make something wonderful! God is crazy about you. He sends you flowers every spring and a sunrise every morning. Whenever you want to talk, He'll listen. He can live anywhere in the universe, and He chose your heart. If you like this, send this on to the people you really care about. I did. Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance.

I hav nv been in shock to the state tt i feel my legs were shivering, u know. nv.
but i felt tt all over me ytd.
i felt disappointment deep within me..but yet, i know its an excellent chance for u to put ur faith in Lord Jesus..
i really dunno wads ur motive for asking me to come down n see u do all tt, but certainly, the act doesnt affect me..at all.
cos i jus think tt's a really superficial way of dealing w ur heart, ur emotions.
yes, u may think ALL is gone. i dont deny tt. but tt's only i put myself into ur present frame of thoughts. if i should put on the lens of God, i know..MOST r gone..but never all.
i'm glad i had this opportunity to pray for u, cos i need to let u know tt Man will fail u..leave u, forsake u..but..GOD..will always be by ur side. HE is the only one who wil nv jus love u based on conditions. HE don't love u cos of ur achievements. HE don't love u cos HE thinks u r capable.
unlike the rest, HE loves u..regardless of who u r. HE acknowledges u as the apple of HIS eye all the same.
tt's what i call unconditional love.
the best gift, or rather, support i can give u right now, is nothing but, Prayer.
i've prayed my heart. i've prayed to tears well in my eyes. i feel so convicted abt it.
the rest is all up to u my friend. it really is.
tk tt bold step of faith.

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i have had so so much to say..but....stooopid bloggger jus wun work ytd.

hahha so for now jus wan to share this that i learn during dmm ytd. i m totally amused.

17These hard times are small potatoes compared to the coming good times, the lavish celebration prepared for us.- 2 cor 4:17 (The Message)

Small potatoes!!!!? i really laughed. so cute. so apt.

finally got my lapp..like it. almost the same size as the ol' one and same colour and almost same design. yeah...think i m not v open to changes. see..even it reflects in my choice of stuff. got to change..hurhur

going to mit huimei before comb team rally now. laters. ;)

sometimes..i really wish to live in denial..
i just refuse to looooook at the things i have to complete.
sch's madness..i tell u.
but somehow, admist the stress, i have this assurance tt things r still in control..
Yup. HE is in control. :)
i may be living a busy life...but hopefully..i ll not fall into the trap of a hurried life.

yeps. theres always time for everything. tt's y u have been put a steward for that. i rem someone telling me tt.. ;)

did i mention i went to little india last night for dinner? an uber different experience i ever had..OK maybe not to the extent of 'ever had'..but i really had a lot of different tots when i was there, from the moment i stepped out of little india mrt station. k..the story goes..

well, not even having to look at the board, i knew when to alight, by looking at the 'passenger grp' tt alighted at tt particular train station..so here i m, with xuan..blindly following the crowd. we could almost pass off as tourists..cos the cannot-make-it us had to check the board for specific exits so as to plan our route. so..we decided to start off w tekka market exit..

n my ol' my..i was really overwhelmed by the NUMBER of people on the streets (or should i say males..) was quite taken aback..cos i din really quite rem seeing so many ppl in little india the other time i came! *must be a sunday evening..tt's y* i tot. so gung-ho-ly (or so i tot), we walked thru the crowds.

n pls laugh at us..cos of our weak stomachs tt day..we ate BURGER KING at little india. wow. i jus cant believe it. i know i know..we will be more adventurous the nx time we go..amazingly..BK was really empty. so 2nd observation: perhaps indians don't really go for burger king?

k..back to my story. aft dinner..had our first few 'tourist' snapshots of little india. night was falling..n my heart was pumping faster. hmm...but having the heart to explore..we headed off to explore the little shops n funny streeets.. i tell u..i was so reminded of an episode of amazing race..hurhur. i tot really..i m in a simulated environment mans.

well..was an ultra eye-opener n i wld say...mind-opener as well. i really realised new comfort zones tt i hav within me. i mean of cos..i may look gung-ho at times..but i know inwardly i m a HUM. well..looks can be deceiving..

many tots. was thinking how m i gg to survive if i should church plant in a similar environment in future? when the ratio of my race to the other is like 1 to a few hundreds or perhaps..thousands in tt area? how did i manage the looks fr the others cos i look different? n naturally..the roads which i promise i will NEVER drive in cos..i suppose once u get in..u need an hr to get out fr the other side.

food! n the language! n many many more! was commenting to xuan tt did we realise tt we actually communicated in chi almost thruout the whole lil india journey. hehs. tho we normally chat in eng. hahas. concluded tt we felt safer in chi..tt not many ard us would hav understood..andtry standing in close proximity of one inch with a stranger n start chatting w ur fren. trust me..its different. its stress. hahahas.

of cos..i wasnt the one taking photos. i m a HUM, rem? i was almost clinging to my belongings while gung-ho xuan snapped happily w the digi cam..pics of buildings..pics of road signs..pics of unique shops..all i can understand..but pics of fruits n veg?! bahs..

anyways, had a gd time of discovery by my little india trip. saw many vcds with words i din understand..peered over many provision shops tt sold herbs or spices tt ive nv seen before..or even internet cafes tt r giving such fantastic rates..hehs. orhhhh..n of cos..the lights n lamps which r all so unique..the shoes n cushion covers which i think r v..erms..i dunno how to describe..jus v 'ethnic'. i jus think i need more of such exposure la.

so..kampong glam. u're nx. :) hehes.

thinking y m i M.I.A-ing fr blogging for quite some time...yeah cos i have nowhere to blog except in sch for the past wk..hahas. anyways, not having a com/lapp with u at home is a good training time to be more time-sensitive n to REALLY REALLY discipline myself from spending time online..to make sure all tech-y stuff are done in sch before i get home. felt really CUT out fr the world to a certain extent..but paradoxically.. i think i did more stuff..hehs.
n good! jus had a prayer answered!! the acer lap will be ready for collection by this thurs..Phewwww.. great great great.. not 14 days afterall! i m finally ending my caveman days. thnx woman for helping me out in buying n collection!!! hehs.
yeah n it was a battle between choosing fujit or acer..but well..i cant care much already..so as long i have something working NOW. n i guess regardless of how hardy its supposed to be..it will still suffer in the poor hands of the owner..yeah.. n tt's me. *guilt-stricken*
i need some crash course on "how to take care of ur lapps" basically.. anyone offering me tt? ;)
had a mini housewarming buffet for my paternal side on sat @ my place..not bad. turn up was quite gd..but i was really worried for my dad when i came home fr church..i saw the amt of food remaining was thinking..'uh-oh..dad's in trouble..' hahas cos basically my dad n mum had a hard time deciding on the amt of food to order..n my dad's a 'rather-over-order' guy n my mum's a 'i-dun-think-ppl-r-HUGE-eaters' person.. so oh wells. but thankfully my mum's too pre-occupied to strangle my dad that night.. n all i can help was to eat as much as i possibly could..or smuggle many plates to my room..hurhur..
it was also a gd time to let some of my relatives tt werent tt close to me to know of my faith..i braced myself up for tt actually..knew it was coming cos of the deco/ornaments i have in the room. regardless of how they took it within their hearts, i'm jus glad i had this chance to have a 'mini-declaration' somehow.
my grann stayed over for the night! shes such a hardy lady u know!! n my sis n i were commenting how sweet she is. a really cool gran i would say. someone who is 98, not on any walking aides, fully alert..n is sooooo cute! hahahs! cos of her hearing probs, she literally leaned over the tea-table and was jus 2 cm away fr my dad's face to talk to him! i really laughed till i dropped can..she's so so cute..
but putting all these aside..i felt a tinge of..i dunno..sadness? i jus felt that i could have done something more in the past..something like to try to get to know her better..brush up my teochew..n all the things i possibly couldve done..as she left my hse for hm..i jus had the feelings of regret of the things i hadnt done.. but well, not time for regrets isnt it.
so current plan..sis and me shall visit her once a wk with dad..i think we can really start off w tt first. ;)
i m really thankful for who i hav in my fam. esp my dad..my mum. n maybe sis! hahahhas.
count my blessings. ;)

jus drafted out the plan for CG tmr..trying something different..woo.. hhahas
its a prayer cg..something which i took quite some time to plan.. i hope huimei gives the go ahead! let me psycho her..hahhas!
alrighty..got tons of work becking me. byeee!

my whole world crashed...when u just left me like that..
i m feeling so helpless..n handicapped without u..
realised that i have been taking u for granted all these while...
abused u...misuse u..overworked u till wee hrs of the night...
sorry my dear...is time we part.
time for someone new..to replace u in my heart. (eh..it rhymes..hahahs)
i'm sorry i've to let u go..
thanks for supporting me and being so efficient for the past 4 years..
i ll remember u for the many things u have helped me achieved..
u've been so faithful.
thanks dear. i'll miss u..
byee...my nec versalite lappiee.... *weeeps.
IT CRASHED ON ME!!!!!

i never everrrrrrrr imagine elective to be that tiring can.
not mentally tiring...
is PHYSICALLY challenging..used up all the little whatever strength i have for a friday.
the sun was scorching..but at least we played games today.. not some boring conditioning
the captain's ball game was hilarious tho'..cos of this really cute nursing girl... hahas. i was laughing more than trying to run for the ball.. hehs
got to scoot for ywca now. hope the kids r not a pain today..unlikely tho.. argh..hahahS! byeee!:)

just finished compiling the list of birthdays of my whole cohort. HAhas. birthday rep. and i must say few people believe theres really a rep position of BIRTHDAY in my class. c'mon i'm not lying k. i m into welfare. hahaha! :)

oo..and my neighbours finally shifted in this afternoon. a middle age couple..the husband's a foreigner n wife's a chi. haha friendly peeps. heard fr my mum tt the auntie works in some healthcare sector. haha!! cool man. finally all the 3 units on my side r occupied. :)

caught up with reg this evening. to town and walked ard. hahas! it's such a nice nua-ed evening. the streets were walkable and not much of a crowd. we like tt. just talked and talked..and talked. hahas. long time nv get to catch up with this woman already. glad i was able to make some time out today!

of cos..we will nv fail to talk abt anything under the sun. hahas. but interestingly, we brought up some noticeable trends tt we both observed on our own and had some mini discussion.

well..not new. abt many pppl of our age getting into relationships..out again..in again..and stuff of these.

we were just wondering..is there really..LOVE in all these fragile relationships tt many of our peers r holding? or is it sometimes..pure lust? hmm..of cos we cant really come to a conclusion. but one thing we know..it all starts out with man wanting to fill up the lonliness in their hearts with something..or rather..someone.

and of cos, it's speaks volume of how many ppl ard us r jus together suddenly..or they have found themselves a partner THAT fast. wow. both me and reg were pretty amazed u know. hahas.

i was just commenting to reg tt telling others that u r single at 20 still is like a "WOW?!? R U SERIOUS??" affair today know. hahas. quote shera..welcome to the LOTS club..[left.on.the.shelf]. :P

yeah la. with regina..the topics will include marriage one la. she dreams of having kids and aspires to be a housewife right..woman?? hahas.

but we r really thankful for this unconditional love that both of us have found in Him..tho' we may be alone physically many times..we r nv lonely. :)

sounds cliche. but it's true to both of us at least. yups woman..i'll be ur future kids' part-time nannnny...HAHAS. hey..arent u amazed at our really funny friendship? hahas. as i was on the train jus now..i cant help but really thank God for this amazing friend tt i hav found in a..really weird manner? hahas. like what u say..we werent even really aware of each others presence in cedar..until somewhere in sec 4 where we dreamt to be SAjc girls tog. hehs. u hav ur reasons of wanting to be in a missionary sch at least once in ur lifetime..and for me...my agenda was to 'seek' more answers in christian faith i guess.. n i tot SA wld be a perfect environment to do so..i mean of cos 'you-know-what' plays a major role den. but i m thoroughly amazed at how God brought me thru this journey of finding more abt Him..and eventually accepting Him into my life as i look back! really..it cant be coincidence tt i chose AJ instead..n woman u came along too. HAHA. aj is such an IMPOSSIBLE place to discover more abt God, i tot den. but i was proven wrong..well.. so wrong. :)

God has his perfect timing. this i know so fully well.. as someone who din know him in those days..i fit the description fully of someone who 'knows about God and not knowing God' perfectly.. i embrace this personal relationship i hav with Him..cos it din come easy. n many times..i do remind myself of this whenever i m upset or disappointed in Him. But He is always there to gently remind me of my identity in Him. tho' i wld say i'm stilll so imperfect now..He nv sees me as someone incapable of changes for the better..by His grace of cos.

thanks for everything Lord. u've made everything so much clearer n possible. :)

some snap shots..















Hosting of the japanese students last tues! fr seirei christopher college in hamamatsu. :) top: grp photo! [erm..did u guys kind of notice the male-female ratio in our course..hahas.]


below: noriko n mee..at lau pat sat for dinner for the social outing.



























above: nizar n hua beng!! singing 'rasa sayang' to the japanese girls!! hahahs! huabeng's fr m'sia..so stronger command in malay. tho he's a chi. amusing la he..hahhas! i nv imagine a lecturer doing tt. for the sake of entertainment..he sacrificed. hahas!

wellwell..shall leave an entry abt the experience if i have the time..for now..let the pics tell u the story! ;) (tho not many to begin with in the first place..i m lazy w uploading. hahahas. ;) )

listening: corrinne may-stay on the road.

i can nv get sick of listening to her songs. nv. really. hahas.

nights world. :)

yeah.guess this shall be my 'permanent' place to jot my thots down i guess? hahas. i miss FOD a lil still tho'. but to make things easier for my friends..i shall make the sacrifice. :P

just make do with this blogg yeah my frens. reireiZ!! what u think of this now?oh wells. i got to get used to it. since i ve been an old faithful user of the 'old-nice-little-comfortable-nv-fail-me-open-diary' for like donkey years. time for a change. hehs.

hmm...i love rainbows. they remind me of God's everunchanging and unfailing promises. :) i rem watching amazing race once..where one of the contestants saw a rainbow fr the helicopter..n commented..rainbows are there to remind us of God's promises. yeps..beautiful things to remind us of His faithfulness. ;)

had service today once again! i have a new team leader for hoperesources! guess who?

*drumsrolllll*

Shuyi!!

yeps. its been quite some time since i last served with her. but its really amazing to work tog again with her. n tog with jitsy. it really reminds me of the pre-tertiary days! wow..i really cant help but praise God for His different plans for each and every one of us. me shuyi n jitsy r currently all serving in diff campuses..and i m really encouraged by this girl shuyi.. from the cute little girl i've known like 2 yrs back..still a raw pie in NJ..to a really young mature lady who is all raring to do more for Him, taking care of His flock! :) inspired by her life!

service was ministering..at least i felt so personally. tried reading what i wrote on the black card when i got home..but erms..so decided to rewrite it on my whiteboard in the room instead. serves as a reminder to me anyway isn't it? ;)

had a good longggg chatting session with deb aft svc. was gd. really gd time. agree deb? aiya..bet u ll differ..hahhas! well. .we were quite unfortunate in a sense..cos evertime we start to pray..some auntie will come over and clear stuff..chat a while..or even to the point of 'pleading' us to leave starhub. hahas! i love the times when we really pray tog for ppl..for ourselves. simple prayers..but i know God hears em. :) shared with her my times since i was a christian..how i really really struggled in the beginning..and how i come to see my personal comfort zones. while waiting for her bus.. i asked her abt her future plans aft she grad. HAHAS!!

oh mans. thinking of it tickkkkkkles me like mad! she tot of wanting to be an....*** **********!

ok i shall protect this covenant...interested parties..pls approach her yeah. ;) deb..i hav definitely learnt a lot fr u..perhaps in ways in which u din realise. blessed by this covenant tt we share. n of cos many times in which u made me realised what a person i actually m. hahas! yeah yeah..i will try not to WALK in front of u guys ok...i m TRYING! hahahahahas.

n thanks for the many times u bear me in love. thank God for u. ;)